My bandwidth was used up a long time ago..I contacted customer support and they told me that I would have to pay 5 dollars per extra GB so that ain't too bad..
I'm switching computers soon (like hopefully this weekend) so I can put up Michelle's layout for at least a week or 2..
I've been working on the Education page at Ashville, Ohio Online..mostly keeping the upcoming events accurate..I remodeled the wrestling and choir sites from 2001-02 into archive sites..
I have decided to make over Lyric Freaky again into a "professional" looking site with links to fan sites, fan listings, cliques, and official sites, as well as pictures of the singles and albums if I can find them..the stuff at the site currently is old pop from the 2001-02 era and recently I bought some Christina Aguilera and Justin Timberlake and I plan to get some Avril Lavigne, Michelle Branch, and Vanessa Carlton music..I know that's limited, but I always get the most recent Totally Hits and Now That's What I Call Music compelations, so I have some outside of the pop frame..I'm also looking for a good MP3 site to download some songs..
After spending time in my multimedia class this quarter, I've gotten into the habit of saying what sucks about a web site rather than what rocks..so I'll be reopening Psychotic Reviews with a new concept: Telling people they suck! Actually, I'm way too nice to do so, so most people won't suck that much..trust me..the sites I've seen made by 12-28 year olds lately have been great..The scoring will be reversed and web designers should hope to get a low score/average because the lower the score, the better the site is..again, I'm too nice and most people's averages will be 5 and below out of 10..my sites would score somewhere between a 3 and 1 depending on the layout..this way, the designers know what NOT to do rather than keep doing what's good along with the bad thing..I know it sounds negative, but I hope to make it funny and inspire other reviewers to try this way of reviewing..
I'm allowed up to 5GB a month and I got only 200MB left (about 18 hours worth)..so WC.com might shut down for a while (10 - 15 days maybe more, I dunno)..Hostees: delete unneeded e-mail and don't allow others to link graphics through your site..thanks and hopefully this site will be up in the coming week..if not, I'll upload stuff to Asifmusic.com..
First vote for me in all categories!
and visit the people I plug:
For being so sweet and plugging me :o)
and
Michelle
For voting for me!
There are people with new layouts, which I'll plug later.. *cough*at least see Genny's site*cough* She's so lucky! She's 16 and in high school and has GRACHIC DESIGN and PHOTOGRAPHY classes..Teays Valley should at least get something better than MSPaint on their computers..last time I heard, our school was getting Front Page 2000 this year..wooptidoo, right? especially when DreamWeaver is the industry standard..also, what good will Front Page do if the students aren't allowed to have copyrighted material on there sites and have to delete them after a few months? Also (I know I'm gripping about everything..maybe I should cut my nails) I'm writting on my lap for 2 of my classes..that's like 9 hours a week of hunching over my lap with a dull squeeky pencil..they should really make the desks wheelchair accessable..even if I wasn't in the wheelchair, I've gotta face the chairs of doom III (college desks that are smaller than a piece of paper)..my teacher suggested a laptop..that would be a lot better than lugging around 3 extra heavy books just so I have a good writting surface on my lap and then not getting down the info I need because I don't write fast..but when I asked my financial aid (who is willing to buy hand control steering and pay for my 1,200 - 5,000 dollar tuition) to pay for at least part of it, they said that it might take a while and I might not ever get it..I thought a laptop would be 1,500 dollars (cuz my friend got one at that price) but today, I found a laptop with Windows XP, Microsoft Office XP for Home, network card, DVD ROM, pretty good amount of memory, wireless modem, a USB optical mouse, etc. for about 1,000 dollars..I don't know why my financial aid won't just pay for it..my dad has an old laptop here that is about 10 lbs+ and doesn't have a CD ROM or USB ports and has an OLD Windows and MSWord, so what I do on that won't work on newer models and vice versa..with the DVD ROM/CD ROM, I can install software I need for school (I'll get illegal copies from my friends) like PhotoShop 6/7, Illustrator, QuarkXpress (for Windows, I hope), Dreamweaver, Freehand, etc. and with the USB ports, I can have a normal mouse and a portable zip drive (which I need cuz everything at CS seems to be on a zip disk)..so I can work on my homework BEFORE class!!! I figured that 32 dollars a month for the laptop, I can still afford rent, gifts for friends, books for school, Psychology Class, and a camera for B&W Photography and still have money left over!
For Understanding the Digital Revolution class, I will create my small web design business called..wait, not yet, just in case someone else decides to get the domain name..but the abbreviation is LMC..I really hope the full name doesn't turn people away thinking I'm too lazy or impulsive..but one of the examples the teacher showed us was this one person's site that did sites for photographers..a basic site with subpages and 50 thumbnails for 500 dollars..um..does anyone see a problem here? I guess she got 2 customers right away..are they nuts? or rich? My site will be for artists in general and pricing will be based on the time it takes me set up/update and how much material it will be..artists aren't always rich enough to pay 500 dollars for their site..heck, they can learn on their own for 150-300 dollars..that's why with my services, an average price for a CUSTOM web site with 10 subpages, 30 thumbnails, and forms would be about 70 dollars (30 for template, 20-40 for set up) with 5-25 dollars a month depending on how much has to be updated or changed (I do things fast, so it most likely be 5 dollars a month) so for a year, it would be 125 compared to 500 so ha!..not only will I get profit, but the artists can show off their work and even sell it and they won't go broke getting their name out there..I would scan and resize their work, if they send it too me and pay for shipping for 10 dollars an hour and ship it back to them..hey, for 30 more dollars and 2 dollars more a month, they can have a domain name, e-mail, site search, and a shopping cart :o) If they had a company and wanted a domain name and sites for lets say 5 of their employees, THAT's when it would be 500 dollars (they also get a small discount)..This way, both the clients and I will be happy and they won't be overpaying me (I'm just too nice to receive tons of money for something that doesn't take much energy out of me)..
I went through my computer and found scanned photos and uploaded those, but I want to put an explaination to each one, so you won't see them for a while..also, I just recently figured out how to fix the problem caused by CVS, so I've gotta redo the prom photos..I also have ideas for new pages, but want to put up Michelle's layout first so I can have that up for at least 2 weeks before putting up my Valentine's layout for February..but my computer is being mean (I'm typing this on my dad's) and locks up every 30 mins..so after I get stuff done tonight, my dad will set up the new computer for me (he has to do the networking again, so I might not be able to update for a while)..but when I get onto the new computer, I'll set the new layout up with some new content!
Being in Intro to Graphic Design has made me want to do print work as well in the future..our first assignment is to create a newsletter with the text they gave us..the bad thing is that we can only use 2 colors and and the graphics they give us..I'm trying to find a way I can make the Calendar of Events more interesting..but I'll probably get points taken off for using more graphics (which I'm not, the "appearence" of the graphics are really made from empty colored text boxes)..
I'm weird..and I don't know why I'm telling y'all this..but does anyone else hear things that ain't there? In the past, I would play with a gameboy for a few hours and then that night I can't sleep because I would hear gameboy noises..I mean as if someone was playing a game in my room..one time with my friend, we put a quarter in one of those kiddie rides in the front of Dollar General and after it stopped, we still heard it..but this weird quirk is taking on a whole new dimention..cuz yesterday I could have sworn I heard a cell phone dialing and a music box play..and there was no music box and the phones were off..other weird things: ok, so it's not weird, just unnerving..I've been dreaming inside a dream inside a dream again and each time I honestly believe I'm awake..but at least it's not as scary..maybe I should get back into writing my dreams down, doing tarot card and palm reading, and actually trying to astral project or remote view or something..maybe then, my dreams won't feel so uncontrolable..
Plug
For her nice comments in my G-book and for plugging me in her awesome blog!
Fan
Krista gave me a fan sign recently: 
Thanks, Girl!!!
Awards
I wanna thank all who voted for me at The MnM Awards because I won these:
New Layout
They Look Like Aliens
[class is about to begin..I'll finish this in a little bit!]
Don't forget to Vote for me!
Kitty's New Site
She is a really great artist, so go check out her site!
New Layouts
Closing?
I regret to inform you that I will be closing Whatever Creations soon and will take off the content tomorrow because it's the same content as everyone else online and Hello! I do have a life!
You really think I'm THAT crazy??? Ok, so maybe I don't have much of a life, but when I get one, I won't get rid of Whatever Creations..I have noticed some of the best web designers *cough*Sol*cough* close their sites because of lack of time to work on them or because they feel that it's the same content as everyone else..Well, I think it's sad :o( Sol had poetry and artwork on his site and other designers, tho the content is called the same, have a different way of expressing their content..Unless I get hit by a bus full of lawyers, get hurled out the window by my Scottish West Civ teacher, go back in time, figure out the meaning of life and don't like it and decide to make a cereal about it, World War 3 begins and 99.9 percent of the population dies from Small Pox, if the small pox vaccine is made mandatory, get trapped forever in a coma, parallel universe, alien space craft, or a dream inside a dream inside a dream, I won't be closing this site any time soon..this is the one place where I can show off my works and express my thoughts without worrying about other people's views..this is where, if I die, or my stuff gets destroyed in a fire or flood or earthquake or killer bee attack or bad plumbing or bad breath, I'll have my works available to be downloaded..many people fear that they'll lose visitors just because they don't update their content..I honestly think that Art and Written are things that can be put on the internet and just left there..no updating needed..I make layouts 'cuz I'm bored of the current one..I don't feel pressured to make a new one weekly (some designers just enjoy and have time to do so..so go them :o) ) or update guess the lyrics monthly..I'm a lazy person with a busy mouth..that's why I blog more often than I update..I have nothing against those who are closing, it's just sad to see y'all go..
Go give Sol your best birthday wishes for him..he turned 16 yesterday..Hey, Sol, I'll make you a fan sign when I get the time to :o)
Noticed Differences
Did anyone else watch the Fiesta Bowl last Friday? I know. That was a rhetorical question..Well, did anyone notice what the fans were wearing? It was somewhere between 50 and 60 out and us Ohioans had short-sleeve shirts on and some were half naked..the Miamians had heavy coats and long-sleeved sweaters..see? We Ohioans think 50 degrees is actually quite nice..I mean hey, 20 degrees is a little chilly..while the Miamian's looked like they were freezing!
Back to School
So I'm finally done with the first day of Winter Quarter..woo hoo! Jon (the teacher, my friend warned me about) looks totally different than what I pictured him..I pictured a 40+ year old balding guy..when really he looks like a thirty-something soap opera star..he actually LOOKS at his students (and a lot at me) which drives me crazy! I try to play on the computer, but I can't cuz I have to at least LOOK like I'm paying attention by looking at him..he moves a lot around my desk which unnerves me because I've got personal space issues..his energy just seems so..big and bright and somewhat over powering (I knew someone at TV like that, but I knew and liked him, so it wasn't a big deal, but he scared off my friends because of his energy)..but he seems nice, but I could tell he'd probably have a bad temper if something got on his bad side..we spent the morning saying why this site sucks..the logo looks like a butt, and the child looks abused..a dude in class thought it looked like a dog playing ball with itself, the girls to my left thought it was a monkey, and I thought it was a teddy bear..At lunch, Holly stopped me and said Hi, I guess she's going here for Legal Assisting and currently works as a paralegal..Jon (lunch room guy), her, and I talked mostly about the Fiesta Bowl and Jon's key chain..his key chain consists of [probably] 10 feet of small chain links, a 4 foot strap, key locks, combination locks, a stuffed animal, and..well, I can't remember all of it..but it looked heavy 'cuz he kept adjusting it on his shoulder..later, Holly and I went to Nestor Hall..I ended up running over her foot :o\ ..Speech class seems intertaining..the teacher sounds like the stereotypical rich english person without the accent (you know, high pitched in the middle) and she seems nice..she told me that CCAD's tuition is 5 times as much as CS, so I guess I need to look into OSU for sure *rolls eyes*..our first speech is informative and of course I went to the thing I know most about: Web Design..but I decided not to because like the last two times, my computer will eat it..so I don't know what to do for that, yet..BUT hahaha..for the PERSUASION paper, I'm SO doing Flag Burning! I wrote a persuasion paper on it in Senior English and studied a supreme court case about it for Goverment! I wanted to make my burnt flag shirt, but didn't get around to it..but now with Thursdays and most of Tuesdays off, I can buy some flags and use the pattern I've got..I have to make the sleeves bell sleeves and find a way to do the chard effect on the sleeves..I know I have to actually burn them to do so..I have to do this on my own 'cuz my dad doesn't like me burning the flag..WHICH IS MY POINT!! The flag is an inanimate object..hurting it won't hurt anyone else..plus the shirt is to prove that desecration to the flag can be used in a patriotic way..this will also be a psychology experiment for now and in the summer when I take Intro to Psych maybe..I want to see just how conditioned people are to automatically get appalled at my shirt.. :o) It will be fun! I had to wait outside the classroom for West Civ..I met a new person, her name is Erin, and she is like most of my other friends: Talkative, positive, friendly, and interested in religion and philosophy..it gives me someone to talk to in that class..one of the coolest things is that she took a Greek Myth class :o) If we become best friends..she'd probably enjoy my wedding :o) I know Kitty will..she'll probably order a Happy Meal for the toy, too..well, anyway, another new person I met is from Zimbabwe and she's in Computer Programming and trying to change it 'cuz she can't stand the hours of coding it takes to get something done and has to be in front of a computer too long..I sugested Interactive Multimedia because she was interested in Broadcasting and design..I suggested it because I got into it 'cuz of my interest in cinematography and advertising..plus, she gets ton of design experience which is fun and since the major teaches students to use DreamWeaver, she doesn't need to do a lot of coding..I also told her what Jon (the teacher) said about how the more you know, the more likely you'll be hired..don't just focus on design, or just coding, know both so things can be done efficiently..My West Civ teach is Scottish with a heavy accent..I'm trying to learn the accent from him..I would say the difference between an Irish and a Scottish accent is that Scottish is a "grungy Irish" it sounds as if it has Russian influences..
Read the Rules
I'm so stupid! I spend hours on a layout for the contest at Dirty Dance only to read the rules and find out that I was supposed to choose from a list *bangs head on the table*..so I'll probably send Laila the layout and she can do whatever with it..I made it so that I can erace the name and customise it to fit other sites, so I might use it for here or if any of you want a Dirty Dancing layout, E-mail me It's not the best thing in the world, but I did do new things like the outline sillhoettes..and plus, do you have any clue how hard it is to find good Dirty Dancing pictures..good enough at least for a layout? They sucked! most were saved as GIFs and they were grainy and the colors were all wrong! I had to gray scale it and blur it..luckily the finished project isn't that bad when you think of the work it took..
Other News
I saw that Marlene saw Signs and that reminded me that my mom and I are buying that tomorrow..I loved the movie..I saw it twice in the movie theatres..the second time was in a crowded theatre so everyone screamed at the right time, that just made me laugh..I think the hand curling underneath the door was a good scene 'cuz I saw something like that when I was a kid..well, I must watch too many movies because now I can guess the ending of the good ones..after watching the Sixth Sense and Unbreakable ten thousand times, I guessed that the ending because the dogs had rabies (hydrophobia)..you can tell because the dog got mad when the girl poured the water..I think the Night Guy made the movie well, cuz my mom and aunt didn't know the ending until the end..yet, the way he wrote in the different elements (such as the rabies and the "Swing" and "Seeing") I knew right off that "Swing" applied to that dude having to use his bat and stuff..And the coolest part is that the director played a part in his movie!!! I think that rocks! I think that's also why I like Stephen King movies..I can't wait to see Dreamcather!! I read part of it and lost track 'cuz I didn't have time to read..but the trailer made it look scary and suspenseful..that must be LATER in the book 'cuz I remember leaving off with the guy farting and it smelled really bad and stuff..I was laughing reading the book..it's find with me..the best scary movies are funny..also, WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! MATRIX RELOADED IS COMING IN MAY!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I can't wait!!!!! The Matrix ROCKS!!!
First, vote for me!
We won
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! We WON!!!
We wouldn't had gone into overtime if they didn't try to fake that field goal..my dad said that holding/interference call was wrong..I couldn't tell if the guy was touching him or not from the camera views they showed..but I believe it made up for that first interception against us..the green guy was totally pushing our guy down and didn't get anything against him, yet when Gamble went after one of their guys and his hand slipped, the other guy didn't even flinch, so nothing interfered with the catch he couldn't make anyway, our team got the flag..I think the refs (all but one) were Miami fans..almost every penalty was against us..they'd have a flag on the play and I'd say "Ah, yeah, that's probably us, again.." But after 2 overtimes, Ohio State won with 31-24..
Oh, yeah, BVR won't pay for CCAD, so they suggested I look into going to OSU (which has been my plan since I was a kid) for fashion design/photography/media studies..hopefully they offer those..
Real quick, vote for me!
GO BUCKEYES!!! WOO!!
GO OHIO STATE!!!! WOO!!!! LET'S GO BUCKS!! MIAMI SUCKS!! LET'S GO BUCKS!! MIAMI SUCKS!! LET'S GO BUCKS!! MIAMI SUCKS!! LET'S GO BUCKS!! MIAMI SUCKS!! LET'S GO BUCKS!! MIAMI SUCKS!!
Well, if you wanna get back into the OSU Football Fever, my dad has the fight song playing at Ashville, Ohio Online!
My Fan!
Kitty is like, one of the bestest friends!!
Look what she made me:
I really appreciate it, Val! Thanks so much!
New Hostee(s)
Here are the sites newly hosted here:
Sam's sites:
and Kitty's sites:
New Layouts
Sites with new layouts:
I'm currently backing up files to switch computers..hopefully I can but up the new layout (made by Michelle) soon with more content!
Real quick: Vote for me
I'd thought I'd be like everyone else and post my "goals" for this year (2003)..but I'll do it my way..
What others want me do in the next year:
Be nicer
Many people think I'm mean for many different reasons and probably want me to be much nicer and think about what I say before opening my mouth (how will this effect so and so? and will it come back to haunt me?)
Be more paranoid
"Watch your purse!" "Just because he looks and sounds nice, doesn't mean he doesn't want to rape and kill ya!" "Yeah, but he could be one of those sickos out there and I don't think you should talk to someone like that.." Gawd! Come ON!! Not everyone is evil! I trust people too much, I know that, but I don't want to be meaner and alone just because I think "Fred" is a criminal cuz they're black, ghetto, goth, or listen to "Hot In Herre" by Nelly! Maybe that's what's wrong with this world..everyone is too paranoid and thus FEAR turns to HATE when the afraid treats the feared differently..Children and what I've seen of my generation seem to be breaking that spell and are more likely to trust more people than they avoid..
Be less annoying
I talk loud..I talk too much..and I don't see things for what they are..etc..I am a very annoying person..
Keep my mouth shut
I'm impulsive and say what's on my mind..sometimes it's stuff that would be better left unsaid (not insults, just things I think are trivial, but to the older generation, it isn't)
See things for what they are and don't ask questions
I analyse things..even people..all of this is in a good way, but as many people have told me, just watch the magic show or the movie WITHOUT wondering how they did it..
Don't question authority
Yup..'cuz they're older and know more than a lowly teenager that has just gotten out of high school..Even tho I have helped many grown ups and authority figures, I must not question them..even if what they say is totally wrong..
Make money
Ah, the number one American goal! Make money! I'm supposed to be making web sites for people..I've made some blah templates about a year ago..and since then have just made my sites to practice techniques..I had 2 jobs, then lost them to people willing to do it for free..so I'm back to nothing..right now, I'm content with getting money from Social Security and having College fees paid by BVR until I learn more art programs and how to make interactive CDs and some Photography..then I can do a lot of stuff! (all within a year or so)..
Stop screwing around with the Occult
It draws me away from God..ooh..blah..whatever! I feel that the occult can be used for good despite the popular belief..
Go to church and be saved
I haven't gone to a Church since..um..Gawd, I can't remember..maybe the September before last when my friend got married? Yet, somehow, I'm evil because I don't go to a building twice a week with hundreds of other people and worship a god through a priest? I feel that life should be savored not surrendered..a person can believe and praise God without a building and a priest..a person does God's work (helping people have better lives and different things) and He/She will work for you (answered prayers..though the answer may be unnoticed by the person)..also, I haven't found a church that holds the same beliefs as I do and I really don't wanna go somewhere where they make me and my friends out to be demons..
Be like "normal" people
I'm 18, I should have an apartment in Columbus and my own car..I should have a job..I should be going to a university and maybe live in a dorm..I'm not the thinnest person in the world, so I should wear loose clothing..I should be offended by rap music..I should be on a diet..I should be paranoid..I should be ignorant..I shouldn't even know how to make a web site..that's for the smart people..and I should just be average..and in my average-ness, I should have a 3.5 or better and cry when I get anything lower than a B on the 7-scale..I shouldn't remember my dreams so well..I shouldn't have dreams inside a dream inside a dream..I should cling to one religion..I should think Tarot Cards and other occult things are evil..I should not believe in things I don't see with my very own eyes, yet I should believe in God..
Write more
"Why don't you write?" "If you could only write like you talk.." "You should write books!" In my blog, I write like I talk..a thought..then ".." .. another thought..it's all in broken sentences, just like my broken thoughts..they meander and lose the reader..I doubt anyone wants to read a book that looks like this blog..not only that, but I have a 3 hour attention span..anything taking longer than that (Like writing a story) I won't finish..
Go into psychology
Not only have 2 psychics said I would be a psychologist, but my friends say I should be one, too..'cuz of the way I combine my knowledge of the occult, litterature, and science to fit a person's need..still, I ask, why aren't others known for this?
See a shrink [E-dink]
I've only been told this jokingly by friends and strangers..and I hope I'll never hear it for real..why would I ever see a shrink when I feel that modern-day psychology techniques suck?
Don't wait 'till the last minute
I'm procrastinatious..It's hereditary..I feel that it's a virtue, too..who else can create homework/a report/an art project in a short amount of time while being rushed but a person who is used to it?
Eat 3 meals a day and drink less Pepsi
Somehow, eating 3 meals a day at the same time each day will make me healther than eating one big one and a small one when I can fit it into my schecdule..My skin has gotten better after going to college where I had cookies and a banana every day for lunch (either 3pm or noon)..and with my "adaptive" eating schedule, I won't go hungry or lose my appetite..
Be more self-conscious
When I'm at home and the only people who see me is my parents (mostly my mom 'cuz my dad works), I wear a huge shirt and underwear..and my hair is tied in a sloppy ponytail..I'm confortable this way and whoever I live with in the future will have to put up with that..but being over at my aunt's, she was like, "You have to get dressed" in my normal clothes (you know, a fitted tee and jeans)..and I'd be like, "Why? We ain't goin' no where.." and she's like "Just to be dressed"..why waste clothing and be unconfortable??? Yet, I'm told, "don't you care that you're dressed sloppily and have dirty hair?" and I'm like, "I'll clean up before I'll see anyone else, so why worry about it now?"
Don't hold on to material things
After being told to focus on material things (such as beauty), I get my stuff thrown away or something and I'm told not to hold on to my papers from school and stuff..I'm trying to organize right now, so they're in a pile on the floor..but I keep them, so I have a collection of writing and art I've made..and the other stuff is usable (notes and notebooks)..
Quit being so impulsive
If I wan't to take a break and play a game, I do..but then someone gets made at me cuz I have more important work to be done..
My list of things I want to accomplish:
Be myself more often
I think I'll be happier..and thus be able to help others be happier..
Don't quit because of someone else's opinion
I have some bad characteristics that are pointed out often, but hiding those aspects of myself also hinders other better qualities..
Write more
I should..it might help me in the long run..
Get ideas down on paper
I am only an idea, nothing but a thought..UNTIL I am given life and a perpose by being written down..
Do more art
I haven't doodled in a while..
Study the Occult more
Lean how to help others with it..
Research parapsychology
I feel that parapsychology and psychology should be combined and used more often to help people without medicine and evasive procedures..
Don't let anyone make me see a shrink-e-dink
I'm 18..and unlike my movie scenario idea, I have never been forced to see a shrink..(actually in my movie idea, the main character gets commited based mostly on her beliefs and her Cassandra Complex..where she predicts things based on patterns and intuition and actually has the power to work around it to save others, but has the "perpetual pop-up windows" of events preventing her to always do so..)
Help more people
I help people often with computer related things..even other students and teachers..
Work harder
I don't work hard enough and become restless and doubt my original plan..
Concentrate on one thing longer
Maybe I have ADHD or ADD (I think an OCD, too..I fixed the window blinds at Hometown Buffet the other day)..or something because, like my thoughts, I can't stay on the same track for very long..
Write down my dreams more often
I feel that if I write my dreams down more often, I'll dream less symbolically..I dreamt more literally in 2000 because of that..but how do I write about being the color pink or being a stack of warm shirts? hmm..last night I dreamt I was brought in at the last moment to play Cinderella and it was dress rehersal..I only played once before that and my friend Kierston had to show me her script..
Be nicer
I am mean and hopefully, I can become less so..
Other than that, just a few hours ago, I came up with a new movie scenario/day dream..just for future reference, the main character in my scenarios is my inner self..the total expresion of my personality/soul..so if you know me or have seen pictures, don't imagine that as the character because physically, I am nothing like how I perceive the physical projection of my soul..but anyway, so in a nutshell, a nuclear bomb goes off the main character (me) is rescued by "Charlie" and "Tim" (note: "Charlie" is always playing opposite of me in the scenarios, even WAY before I started to really like him) .. now, see "Charlie" is the all around nice guy that you don't see every day (he's acually based on a guy I knew at school) and well..*sigh*..how can I sum this up..the main character is trapped for 3 days and she's like the first survivor found in 24 hours..something in the blast, or actually the viewer/reader never finds out why, but the main character looks totally different (I use this scenario a lot when the main character is me and the other characters are people I actually know) and looks like her soul..(this is to show the drastic differences)..the main character doesn't realize she'd changed until after she gains mobility after being in a 3 day coma..then, she realizes that "Charlie" was being nice to a stranger and not just to her..(ok, it sounds too unrealistic, but the dialog explains it better)..well, uh..heh..[let's say a close relative] of his is a psychiatrist is called in to talk to her because she now sees people who ain't there (ghosts and stuff, which sucks because of the bomb)..well, she tells about her theory (which is my theory) about the advanced civilizations dying out and stuff..and she predicts that the bombs (there was a large attack) was just the beginning and that a plague will be worse..and other course the bombs and the plague are caused by mankind, just like the exstinction of past civilizations, (Noah's Ark and Greece, etc.) it was brought on by others of their kind (mankind)..so "Charlie" snaps (has a psychotic break) and out of fear does bad things (which I don't care to go into, but the characters in my scenarios are always "Human" meaning they show both good and bad and try to reach a gray area)..so..yada yada yada..the main character gets better and to stop "Charlie" from going deeper into the darkness (because he gets the doomsday virus thingy, or at least thinks so) by telling her prediction and tries to give him hope (she of course is showing no signs of illness and couldn't be more healthier)..her prediction is that those nearest to ground zero of the nuclear bombs were "radiated" enough for their DNA to adapt to the new environment and that maybe those people are immune (at the beginning, the main character asks why "Charlie" and "Tim" aren't wearing suits..and they explain that they were near the blast site..they were fireman/paramedics in columbus or something..and that a little more radiation won't matter)..And then it becomes similar to "The Stand" by Stephen King..like if the government sent out officials to find and quarentine anyone who hasn't got the virus so they can be used for making a vaccine or treatment..so she and "Charlie" try to run away in a car chase scene..other stuff happens..blahblahblah..and they get captured..now, all of this time, the main character is being called "Jane" (as in Jane Doe) or "Angel" (the shirt she was wearing when she was found) and because she changed so much, she decided to have "Charlie" and others try to figure out who she is based on her personality..so at the end of the chase, "Charlie" still doesn't know who she is..but some other psychic/numerologist got the goverment heads to search for "Master Numbers" (because in a book they are the ones here to witness these events and might give some insights on how to prevent/survive them)..so the main character has to give her name (which I give her my name, since I'm a master number) and that just totally blows away "Charlie" who also has to give his name, but isn't anywhere near a master number..(which dawns on me that I have to change the name or "Charlie" in real life will know it's him..UNLESS I somehow do become involved with him in the future..but how would that ever happen? Rescue me from something? lol) So it goes on being like the Stand and simlar to the Rapture and crap and really just incorporates everything I have theories about..
I know it's confusing and vague, but it would take me hours to write it out..the part above for just be a half hour of movie time..plus, like a Stephen King book, the Characters are only understood by reading the other books..just as the way to understand aspects of the characters in my scenarios is by reading my others..cuz I give each character different aspects and they react differently in the different situations..but they all are the same person in each one..the weird thing is that I had "Charlie" in the ones I though up WAY before I got to know the real one better..and surprisingly, I wasn't far off when it came to personality, values, and beliefs..the problem is that I wanna keep his real self secret just in case he reads it, but since my stories are based on previous knowledge and real people, that would be hard..but since he's the "Life Saver" type (you know, a cop/fireman/paramedic) he'd probably never see it..
Another unrealated thing: I noticed that when I write my theories and scenarios down, my chest, throat, and under my chin become "heavy" and tingly..IT'S SO WEIRD!! And I'll get really cold..maybe I slow down on my breathing or something..or maybe it's just because I'm trying to type at 2am..I know I'm weird..you don't have to tell me..but wouldn't you think it's weird when your shirt feels like it's pressing against you and tighter on your neck EVEN AFTER you pull it down away from your neck? And it's only when I write for this long..
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New Layouts
These sites have put up new layouts while I haven't been able to access the internet with my 'puter:
Updated Hostees
I'll be adding Kitty's sites to the Hostees' list so she can get some traffic to her sites.. and Alex is taking a break..
I'm Baaaack!
My dad stayed up 'till 5am this morning working on my computer..he finally got the networking (and thus the internet) to work and he also got my CD Burner to work so I can switch computers soon.. :o) So I'll be updating my sites..
Goldfish
Remember 2 posts ago when I talked about how similar this one piece of Greek lit was to the Matrix? And how "Religion" could be the Matrix? Well, I was reading Michelle's blog and she was saying how they talked about it in her english class about how god could be an alien creating Adam and Eve and different things..I think that's cool..we would never have convos like that in my high school..a large majority of the sudents ar VERY Christian..to say that Jesus was an Alien (hello, he walked on water and healed people and things..heck he "ascended" in to the sky..) or that Noah had Doppler Radar and the "pairs of animals" were pairs of animal DNA in test tubes..how else would there be room in that big wooden box (yeah, contrary to the popular belief, Noah's Ark was a box)? And it would make sense since civilizations die out when they get somewhat advanced, and then the next civilization has to almost start from scratch..Democracy, running water, and great war strategies exsisted in Acient Greek and Roman eras..fast forward to begining of "America" with the Revolutionary War (ever seen "The Patriot" with Mel Gibson?) They stood in line and shot each other..and then it was a LONG time before they had running water in the houses..and more than 2000 years after democracy was first created, it was done again to make one of the most peaceful countries of today..ANOTHER WEIRD THING: I have to look it up, so Im not sure if it applies to the Noah's Ark thingy..but I looked at the life spans of the Greek philosophers and authors in the magazine and they all lived to around 70..so WHY did the life span go back down and we are now getting back up to the average life span of about 80? If my theory about Noah's Ark is right, about being advanced technilogically when the flood happened..and the Greeks were advanced in their ways of thinking and were taken over..what does that mean for us? (Americans, Europeans, and even the Orient) because we are all advanced and have long life spans? I honestly think our culture/civilization is advanced too much with Religion and may disappear like the ones before us..HOPEFULLY because we are also advanced with Technology and Thinking we may last longer..but if we don't advance in our ways with the Earth and how we use it, we will be gone within the next 200 years probably..the sucky thing about that is, many people will see it happen because with genetic engineering, we will all be able to live to 150 years old and look 20 years old most of our lives..
The reason I called this section "Goldfish" was based on the anology I used in the post before last..It made me laugh to remember "The little fish that smiles back until you bite their heads off"..it fits the analogy because the other "Goldfish" are too ignorant to believe there is a bigger world out there..
Movie Freak
I have this habit of analysing things..Magic Tricks (since I know I few), Religion, life, and even Movies..especially movies..maybe it's because about 90 percent of the people I talk to daily at school are film makers..well, whatever..last Sunday, my parents, my aunt, and I went to the movies for Christmas (belated)..We saw Catch Me If You Can..I love Spielbergs moves :o) He makes serious things funny and he did the whole blue and orange thing again like he began to do with Minority Report..I don't know why, but I like movies that are made that way because people who "analyse" movies can actually see the patterns and the "normal" movie going will catch it subconciously and automatically like the movie..if it was just a plain movie (like many late 60s and 70s movies..excluding Hitchcock) people will only see it once and say hmm..the plot was nice..but you need "layers" to get the movie goer to comeback and see it again..Hitchcock and Spielberg were/are geniouses because they used layers in there movies back when they weren't used very often..Yesterday, I saw "The Last Voyage" and totally thought it was a Hitchcock movie because of the suspense, the rythm, and the way it was filmed..but I just found out it was directed by some guy named Andrew L. Stone..makes me wanna see his other movies..maybe he was a genious, too..I only found 3 other movies he made..maybe that's why he wasn't well known..but really, without "layers" Psycho, the Birds, Vertigo, Rear Window, Jaws, Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind, Back to the Future, Taken, Minority Report, Catch Me If You Can, Titanic, 12 Monkeys, The Matrix, The Mummy/Returns, Die Hard movies, Any movie by M. Night Shamylan, Any Stephen King movie excluding the Original Carrie and the Running Man (which is a poor attempt to make another Total Recall), really, almost any movie made after 1997, etc, would never be big box office hits..