It's WAY too late to write everything I want to update my 4..er..3? loyal readers about..first of all, I didn't fall of the face of the earth but I did get lazy and didn't finish my sites..heck, I didn't even start on a new WC layout..I have to get my portfolio up and running cuz I need to find a place to internship at within the next 3-4 weeks..that's not much time..

otherwise, I have most of the day off tomorrow, so here are the things I'll write
about then:

:o) The weird "Scripture" writing study - thing..basically me being bored on the first day of Spring Quarter and [trying] to make it sound more mythical..I'll soon be a "half-angel"..you'll see what I'm talking about tomorrow..

:o) What all the above meant

:o) The rest of that day

:o) I know some German! ..at least I can count to 20!

:o) What happened on Wednesday

:o) The LOB people are genius discordians! I wish I had that much free time and money!

:o) I really like Macromedia Director..mostly cuz it's easy..

:o) I was going to say other things, but I drank about 24oz of Propel Water in like, 5 minutes..so it's like, catching up with me..and having to go to the bathroom is kinda interferring with my think-..OH YEAH! I might be able to join the Drama Club this Spring! ..if I can get a ride..at least I won't be bored :o)

:o) Other things and probably some weird theory of mine.....but I gotta go......litterally..

Room Change
First of all, I can't "clean" my room because I'm in a wheelchair, but I don't care really if it's ever clean..it's ALWAYS messy! Not as much with clothes, but with books..I don't have enough room for all of them..so my mom makes "plans" to do "mass cleanings" meaning that she tries to organize my stuff..Which drives me crazy because when it's messy, I go through stuff and remember where everything is..so when she organizes it when I'm at school or on vacation with my aunt, I come back and I have no clue where my stuff is! so something like my Fall Quarter schedule is not in a box on top of an old Seventeen magazine, under papers with doodles, that's under bank statements, that's under the Healing with Auras book, that's under the Parallel Myths book, that's under my Western Civilization book, that's under my Mythic Tarot book, all that's under the chair that has some pop music CDs, some old rolls of color negatives, a towel, jeans, and a shirt..NO! It's now stored in some non-descript white plastic bag..meaning it could be in any of the numerous Columbus State or Cord Camera bags laying between my computer desk and my writing-but-used-for-storage desk..

NOW she says if she's gonna clean the room, she wants to move the furniture around too! WHAT?? We had a goofy fun argument about how to arrange my room because I'm too picky! Here's my criteria for my room:

1) I HAVE to see the door from my computer desk and my bed
Why? Good Fung Shui and it prevents that whole ghost walking in and me thinking it's one of my parents thing.
2) I CANNOT have my feet face the door
Why? Good Fung Shui and if I did have it that way, I couldn't see the door.
3) My bed CANNOT be sideways up against the wall .. it has to be at least 1 foot away
Why? The windows are old and cold air comes down on me and I'm not used to it an slam my knees into the wall.
4) I HAVE to be able to reach my books at all times
Why? Sometimes I get in the mood to write down a theory of mine, so I NEED to have access to books I can use as sources to back up my theory

so we found a way to do it, but it requires me to lose the writing desk to gain another small bookshelf..and that means losing a lot of storage area..it also makes me have my head in the middle of the room while sleeping which is weird..

"Charlie"
*Sighs* I had a very vivid dream of him last night..usually that means I'll be depressed today (hasn't happened yet tho)..but the dream was about having him in an art class that I was in..either drawing or photography because we had to do something with "lines" and I had an ear of corn..we weren't together in the dream, he was just his normal self, but I remember trying to sit next to him..I really don't remember what happened..BUT today I found out what "Charlie" has been up to..*sigh* I knew I was right about his jaw (I'm sounding weird, but this is to keep local readers confused)..but this Oedipus Rex (sp?) Complex (really the Electra Complex since I'm a girl) is getting out of hand..meaning "Charlie" is becoming more and more like my dad..which is WEIRD I tell you! Same sun sign, same height, same hair, same vocal range, etc, now getting near the same skills..it's weird!! but I liked "Charlie" before all this, so it's not so bad..but how would I ever bump into him again? Wait for the reunion??? Maybe I could lose some weight by then..OR he comes to the Spring "Fling" thingy at school (where groups have activities)..nah..*sigh*

I'm Getting Closer
...to getting done with my Portfolio and Services site! Here are some screen caps of the flash site (minus the content text) and the portfolio section just has placeholder graphics, but oh, well..

The Portfolio Section:

School Starts Monday
I finally get comfortable in my break and now I have to go back..so I'm gonna rush putting up my personal site's layout up tomorrow so if anyone wants to visit..they can..I hope this quarter is VERY exciting rather than VERY boring like I expect..I need some positive excitement in my life..

New Hostee
Say it soft and it almost like praying.. Maria is our new family member!
Go visit her site:

New Layouts


Yesterday, I created the main sections of the new layout for my services site..I now have to add motion and create a portfolio interface and get my images on there..oh, and make in intro..sorry if y'all don't have flash, but I'm wanting it to be in Flash..I might make a HTML version of the portfolio tho..I'm not sure what I'm gonna do at the personal site, though..I'm going back to school on Monday and I have to find a place for my internship ASAP!

I wanted to read the Bible before seeing the "Passions of the Christ" and I finally found this one site I saw about 3 years ago..

The Skeptic's Annotated Bible/Quran -
http://www.skepticsannotatedbible.com/

It's nice because you can read the King James Version (my favorite because it's supposedly closest to the original Greek and Hebrew scriptures and sounds a little like Shakespeare, but even more confusing) and read sarcastic comments and questions about verses and see where there are contridictions (probably because of the authors (like when sometimes it says "God" and other times says "Lord"..sometimes referred to as "E" or "J")), etc.

and a link from that site:

The Brick Testament - http://www.thebricktestament.com/

Like, wow, what an awesome idea! Bible stories made totally out of legos! I swear, whenever I get married and have kid(s) I will so show them this..just because it's memorable and a different view..it depicts God as taking human shape (He's the guy with the long white beard) and of course the whole sex and nudity thing is hilarious!! Since lego people aren't biologically correct, they can only hint at sex by putting them into positions (yes, I know I'd currupt my kid and probably wouldn't show it to them till they're grown, but people read the Bible to their kids and there's a lot more shown on TV, so it's not a big deal and it's a humorous look at the subject)..I love the fact that "blood" is represented in transparent red blocks..pregnant women have a block added to their stomach area..my favorite (ain't I morbid) is when they talk about lifespans..they have the person and their spouse(s) standing and happy "[insert name here] lived for one hundred and four score years." .. the next scene is the the person lying on the ground and their spouse(s) looking down at them worried and surprized "and then he died."..it's funny! Go read!

I've received some interesting questions lately:

Q: "WHAT THA FUCK IS THAT BANNER ON MY PAGE"
A: Well, you probably have a site at Angelfire or any other free hosting service that needs to put advertising on your web pages to get enough money to provide you and millions of others the space and bandwidth they offer for free..OR you have spyware on your computer that automatically puts a banner on your page..some even create "toolbars" in your browser..download "Spybot - Search and Destroy" and "Ad-Aware" programs to find and eratticate (sp?) spyware and other malicious software from your computer..

Q: "My lover was in my dream"
A: That rocks! Sounds like you had fun..but I'll need to know more details if you would like me to try to interpret it for you..

Keep them coming! Yeah I know it was boring, but I'm not in the sarcastic mood..

Grr..I feel bad about ranting, but how else can I get the negative crap out of my head? Basically I can't believe I've become one of those people who feel HORRIBLE when they get average grades..I used to be happy to receive a C..being on the Dean's List 2 quarters in a row has spoiled me, I guess..basically, for the Video Editing class, I had a 90% A going into the final..but the final project was 44% of my grade..so..I do what I can with unconnected video and audio clips and I'm 95% sure I did everything I needed to..except the extra credit (I didn't have my bookbag, so I couldn't remember the names for the rolling credits)..almost everyone else had access to a video camera and did awesome creative thingies..they rock! The worst thing was that I mistook the link saying "Final" as one link and overlooked the written final..it was due by 5pm..I sent the Video in at 4pm and I didn't know about the written final until someone mentioned it to me at 6pm..I PANICKED!! I swear I think I have blood pressure problems..I answer the questions in like 15-20 min. while trying to block out everyone talking to me..you could use the book, but I was freaking out so bad, that I did all but 4 questions by memory..I told the teacher and she said that I could turn it in later tonight..I asked her about 5 times "so I can turn this in, say, by 10pm??" and each time she said yes..so I looked up the 4 questions and sent it too her at 9:57pm..I have proof, too! But I did the math..If I'm right, I must have gotten a D or lower on both to get a final grade of C..so it's like I didn't do anything..why did I show up for the final, anyway? Did I get half of the questions wrong? on both? Maybe my memory failed me and like people seem to hint at sometimes, that my memory is either wrong or the stuff didn't really happen..quite creepy because even though my memory is usually right, one time people got me to doubt the exsistance of my friends (shows just how psycho I am, even though I can't seem to change my mind in to believing/disbelieving totally) and it was weird because that was the same week my friends didn't show up at lunch and one of them died..so yeah, weird..they came back though and other people see and hear them, so I know I'm not just talking to thin air..hmm..I know I'm weird, but I go really psycho mentally when I'm not feeling good..

So yeah, that's my rant..it brought my GPA down to a 3.3..(I had a 3.78 last quarter)..I got 3 As, 2 Bs, 1 C, and 1 Satisfatory (which lowers my GPA because it counts as 0 credits)..well, whatever..I really do worry too much..and I hardly ever get to express it..which will make me go insane by the age of 22..so I should really focus on not caring so much..

I'm back...sort of..
So I finally have time to update my site and what do I do? I go on hiatus! I'm planning on making over the personal site into a site that has my blog, theories, thoughts, and invention ideas..I'll also have a hostees' section, reads, and portfolio outcasts..My priority at the moment is the Online and offline portfolio so I can bring/send it to internship interviews..The current "portfolio" (which is just a site with almost everything I've made up to late October '03) I need to add stuff and prune it down to my best work (which is actually a real portfolio)..most of my best work has been done since begining of fall '03 to now so I really need to update..I only get a week off for break and then I'll be doing Macromedia Director and Dreamweaver and stuff to take up my time..the Frontpage stuff will be easy cause I've used it for 4 years (for the past 3 years, I've been using the HTML view mostly)..so that won't take much time..I found out I didn't have to take Algebra 2! You only need Algebra 1 to graduate and I tested into Algebra 2..so no class on Tuesdays! Even though I was in a way looking forward to it..I rather take Algebra 2 than English..math is easy..English makes me write with good grammer and I can't write good (lol) because I speak with an accent..I don't like saying "his or her" I say "Their" and that's wrong..and other stuff..so I'm only going to school Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday next quarter..I'm going to go to choir at the Noon ones every other week and on the night ones every other week..I found that "Alex" was in choir! I was meaning to tell him about the choir cause I knew it was a great singer (he was in PR, so duh..)..

Finals
like my friend, I was just burnt out..I got 3 hours of sleep Monday night to finish my flash final which wasn't my best, but I'm used to having people come to me and telling me what they want to see and about what they want the site about..all we had was a poorly designed website to go on..I wanted to go to the place and take photos and my friend had that idea, too..but I had a choir rehearsal and concert to attend..and it sucks that I can't drive or I would've gone up there..I even asked the teacher if I could take pictures of the place..but because I have to depend on others for a ride to a place that's about an hour away, it didn't happen and my friend was busy that weekend, too.. so Barry (the guy who reminds me of Arron Kinser because they both are SO talented) was the only one to go..he lived in walking distance I guess..so whatever..I can't wait 'till I can drive..I'd go everywhere! and take photos of everything..I hope to get my license this next quarter..I need to be able to drive to whereever I intern at and to school for Advanced Digital Photography..My final for Studio Photography went fine, but during the critique my ADD (if that's what it is) kicked in and I couldn't pay attention..my mind was going everywhere and I blocked out what people were saying and I sounded like an idiot..oh, well..I got a good grade on my Cultural Diversity exam and Aced my final project somehow and the teacher wrote "Good" on my paper..so that was cool..I had to redo a lot of my 3D Model/Animation (3MBs)..my files and back up files didn't work! so I had to redo all of the materials and make a crappy "window" which was just shapes and I didn't have time to scan a pepsi can and a Propel Water label or even photograph my couch and carpet for texture..the animation didn't take REALLY long to do, but rendering was 10 mins..it would've been longer had a added the extra textures/materials and raytraced the glass chess pieces..in the end, you don't see the couch and other end table, but oh, well..I only had about 6 hours to make the curtains and do some of the materials and THEN do the animation and rendering twice..so I only slept 2 hours Wednesday night..my final for Adobe Premier (Video Editing) class sucked..what do you expect when I don't have a camcorder?? my dad's doesn't work and doesn't upload video to the computer..soon I hope to get enough paying clients to buy a brand new video camera with firewire and everything I need to get something other than still photos..I had some final video ideas and couldn't do them :o( so I put together some seemingly unconnected MOV files found on the Macs in DH229..

Choir Concert
I didn't have an ear problem this time and I found out that I could sing higher if I just changed my mind to think that my middle note is high C rather than G and I could sing up to high B (above high C)!! So I was able to sing better! I found this out at the rehearsal on the day before the concert tho..lol..and the orchestra was loud in front of us so it made me sing out lounder which I sound better louder..I said like, 2 words to the CGwG..I should've went to my spot earlier because he was there and I could've talked to him more..he's looking cuter by the day! He looks like "Luke" but now has a Justin Timberlake gotee (sp?) add glasses and you got the CGwG! He's so cute! Yet so shy.. :o\

New Camera
I finally got a digital SLR..A Nikon D100 to be exact..talk about a paradigm shift..I'm still trying to get used to the fact the the image appears on the screen and I have to white balance..otherwise it's just like an SLR which is GREAT!! now I can do tons of crap that I've been wanting to do, and I don't have to waste 100 dollars a month in film and processing!!! Woot! I'm going to make up "Missions" with themes like "Exaggerated Reality"..so it'll be fun!

I haven't been able to write much or even think about updating the layout..but I hope to get everthing ready for a HUGE change of format here at WC..my "Spring Break" is from March 20 or somthing to March 29th..it's not very long, so I hope to finish my online and physical portfolio, update my resume, etc. AND change over to the new personal site within that time..I have to turn in internship paperwork around the beginning to mid April and get my petition to graduate in soon after that so my main priority during break is getting my portfolio together..so I just wanted to say sorry to anyone who has been waiting for an update or an email back from me about hosting, etc.

Well, I gotta go..I'll see if I can actually "blog" well later..