I'm at the Cougar News meeting..done with my part...I think...so it's time for everybody's favorite game...................
THE UPDATE
*barely audible cheers from the crowd*
Some friends messaged me and I figured out how much of a monster Facebook was, so I'm updating the list I made I originally began in May..
So here's an update about what people are doing (some from memory, so it's not the best list) (alphebetical order):
Becky Anderson - Doing well!
Kirby Baker - Doing well!
Rickey Baldwin - Went to Columbus State for some time and was called to duty for the Marines back in April!
Saddie Benroth - Going to Capital University for Nursing!
Annie Bobek - Going to Otterbein!
Lillie Boggs - Going to The Ohio State University for English and Education!
Amanda Bradley - Doing well and attending Bradford School! Her MySpace.com page says she's married!
Josh Brewer - Going to Wright State University!
Samantha Byrne - Going to Shawnee to become a teacher!
Christina C. - Doing well, just had a kid!
Alaina Darst - Going to Circleville Bible College!
Ashley Defelice - Doing well!
Derek Dowdy - Apparently went to Ohio University - Chillicothe Campus and became a firefighter, EMT, and corrections officer! He currently lives in Beaufort, South Carolina!
Ashley Duncan - Going to Ohio University - Lancaster Campus and is about to go to Athens for Special Education!
Sarah Erchenbrecker - Going to Bowling Green University for Theatre and Film!
Mike Evans - Went into the Marines and is an Avionics Technician! He was in town in November 2005!
Adam Fausnaugh - Going to Capital University!
Jessica Foreman - Going to Miami University of Ohio!
Matt Fousnaugh - Going to Otterbein!
Scott Frazier - Going to Ohio University!
Casey Freeman - Going to Miami University of Ohio for a Speech Communication and Marketing fields!
Angie Giuffre - Doing well in New Jersey, but wants to come back to Ohio! She had a beautiful baby boy recently!
Tammi Gleason - Doing well, working at Circleville's YMCA in child care! She soon will have a daughter named, Ava! Isn't that a cool name??
Holly Gray - Doing well!
Amy Grogan - Doing well and recently moved to California!
Valerie Hilde - Going to University of Findlay!
Tracie Harris - Going to University of Cincinnati!
Audra Helser - Going to The Ohio State University!
Jennifer Hinerman - Doing well in New York, but wants to come back to Ohio!
Marc and Matt Hood - Doing well and work in Westerville!
Tiana Kelly - Going to Capital University for Radio/Television and Public Relations!
Megan Kinch - Going to Capital University!
Arron Kinser - Doing REALLY well! lol like acting/directing/modeling/etc. in California!
Mike Leffler (sp?) - Doing well!
Jack Legg - Going to Cedarville for Youth Ministries and World Missions!
Monica Lombardo - Going to Ohio University for Journalism!
Tim Madden - Went into the Navy and was in town at the end of October 2005!
Tahrea Maynard - Going to Circleville Bible College for Religious Studies!
Ashley McHugh - Going to the Ohio State University for English and Comparative Studies!
Kierston McKenzie (sp?) - Going to Ohio Dominican University and majoring in Education!
David McPeek - Doing well and soon to be a father!
Eric Messic - Going to Denison University for Economics!
Jered Musselman - Going to the University of Cincinnati!
Adam Noble - Going to Wilmington College for Psychology!
Peyton Noland - Going to the University of Findlay!
Laura Paul - Going to Ohio University for Dietetics!
Sarah Pedigo - Going to University of Akron for Dietetics!
Marinda Perrill - Going to Ohio University for Criminal Justice!
Adam Peters - Going to Wilmington!
Shawn Price - Going to Miami University of Ohio!
Jennifer Pruit - Doing well and soon will be moving to South Carolina!
Becky Reckart - Going to Miami University of Ohio!
Jon Reed - Going to Olivet Nazarene!
Erika Reese - Going to The Ohio State University and Columbus State Community College for Sports Therapy!
Amy Roese - Going to Ohio University majoring in Health Service Administration!
Elizabeth Routt - Going to Mt. Carmel for BSN Nursing!
D.W. Routte - Going to The Ohio State University for Architecture and Political Science! I also heard he was engaged!
Elizabeth Runnion - Going to Bowling Green and is in the Air Force!
Alex Rushley - Going to Wooster for Psychology!
Laura Sell - Going to Capital Univeristy for Athletic Training and Excersise Science!
Greg Seltzer (sp?) - In the Air Force National Guard and a union electrician!
Elise Shubert - Went to Wright State University and is now going to Coastal Carolina University for Middle School Education with concentrations in Math and Science!
Austin Stone - Doing well and working in Columbus!
Erica Taylor - Going to Ohio University for International Business!
Valerie Wakmunski-Wucter - Going to Ohio University - Chillicothe campus!
Kacy Walton - Going to Otterbein for Life Science!
Michael Warrell - Going to Ball State for Theatre and Dance Performance and Music!
L.J. West - Doing well!
Rylon Whitcomb - Will soon graduate DeVry University with a degree in Computer Engineering Technology! He will soon move to Portland, Oregon to work at Intel!
Ashley Wilson - Doing well, has at least 2 cute sons, Nathan and Nicholas!
Alea Wohnhas - Going to Lipscomb!
Connie Yaple - Got a degree and now works in a healthcare related field! She will have a beautiful baby girl soon!
Couples:
People from my class who I heard got married..
Andrew Byerly and Megan Sayre
Connie Yaple and David McPeek
Holly Gray and Scott Brown
Missy Webb and Adam Zealer
Jennifer Pruit and Derek Dowdy (engaged)
Toni Mosca (now Saladrigas)
Jake Lowe
D.W. Routte (engaged)
If I forgot ANYBODY, please EMAIL ME and I'll add ya!
I did lose some update emails from friends since the last update since my laptop screwed up..so please send them to me again!
Most of the info is from seeing them in person, MySpace.com, Facebook, their personal websites, word of mouth, and newspaper articles..if anyone has a MySpace.com page or a site I didn't know about or want their email linked from their name, please tell me if you want me to link you in the list!
I really don't know where this came from, but I started making up commercials in my head for phones that don't exist (at least not yet)..of course any of these examples are too long for one commercial..
In the order I made them (not correct formatting because it's hard to have it in a blog):
FADE IN
INT. CHURCH - DAY
We are in a crowded church as there is a wedding going on. The BRIDE and GROOM are at the alter. The groom is holding her hand and finishes saying his marriage vows. The bride smiles and the groom looks nervous.
PREIST: Douglas, do you take Amber to be your lawfully wedded wife?
Douglas looks nervously at his bride. His cell phone RINGS and he answers it.
MAN/V.O.: (through cell phone) Don't do it dude! She'll divorse you and take all your money.
Douglas looks at his bride, smiling beside him, but a little annoyed that he's on his cell phone at a time like this.
MAN/V.O.: (through cell phone) Plus, she's been fooling around with the guy in the second row.
Amber looks over to the second row and smiles. A hansome man in the second row winks at her.
Douglas puts away his phone.
DOUGLAS: Sorry, I can't do this.
Douglas walks out.
INT. HIGH SCHOOL - AFTERNOON
STUDENTS are walking and running through the halls after school has let out for the day. We join a small GROUP of friends talking about a party.
1ST BOY: So you're going to the party, tonight, right?
2ND BOY: I don't know.
1ST BOY: What do you mean? You have to come! We're all gonna get drunk and I heard there will be some pretty hot girls there.
As the first boy talks to the second boy, the second boy seems to become more interested.
2ND BOY: Sounds like a blast, but I have to study for this huge test!
1ST BOY: Whatever! Think about it, you only live once, so are you going to spend your life surrounded by books or friends? (BEAT) I gotta go, I'll catch ya later! Hopefully tonight.
The first boy leaves and the second boy thinks about going to the party. His cell phone RINGS and he answers it.
MAN: (through cell phone) Don't go to the party! If you do, you will fail your test and you won't go to college. Heck, you won't graduate high school. You will also get seriously injured in a car wreck and that preppy girl won't ask you out.
The boy puts away his phone and walks toward the library.
INT. MOTEL ROOM
A MAN is about to commit adultery with a PROSTITUTE. They are kissing heavily on the bed.
MAN: You are a much better kisser than my wife.
As things heat up, the man's cell phone RINGS and he answers it, much to the annoyance of the prostitute.
2ND MAN: (through cell phone) Stop, now! She has HIV. If you end up having sex with her, you will die from the disease and end up spreading it to others.
1ST MAN: (to prostitute) I can't do this.
The first man hangs up and leaves the motel.
EXT. FIELD IN NEVADA - NIGHT
A MAN is in his car parked in a barren field. His cell phone RINGS and he answers it.
2ND MAN: (through cell phone) Put film in your camera!
Confused, the first man hangs up the phone and does what the second man said. The first man walks out of his car looking at the beautiful stars. Out of nowhere, a UFO appears! The man takes photos of the spacecraft just seconds before it goes away.
Words are on the screen and read by a narrator.
NARRATOR/V.O.: This phone does not exist.
The man cheers as he runs back to his car.
NARRATOR/V.O.: But these phones do:
CUT TO:
A selection of phones from a company is shown on the screen. Each one shows a feature they offer (such as a camera phone with flash, video phone, text messaging (with the word's "Don't do it, dude"), and iTunes).
NARRATOR/V.O.: A phone can't call you before you make the worse mistake of your life, but [company name] offers a wide range of services and features to help you on life's journey.
INT. BAR - NIGHT
A MAN is on a cell phone.
2ND MAN: (through cell phone) Tell her she's hot and ask her to go home with you. If you don't, you will be alone for the rest of your life.
The man goes up to a WOMAN at a bar and we see him from a distance as the woman throws her beer on him and storms out the door.
We see a group of MALE FRIENDS in a nearby booth laughing at the first man. One of the men, the second man, is holding a cell phone.
2ND MAN: I just love doing that.
The second man hangs up.
FADE TO BLACK.
2nd commerical:
FADE IN
INT. CHURCH - DAY
We are in a crowded church as there is a wedding going on. The BRIDE and GROOM are at the alter. The groom is holding her hand and finishes saying his marriage vows. The groom smiles and the bride looks nervous.
PREIST: Amber, do you take Douglas to be your lawfully wedded husband?
Amber looks nervously at her groom. She gets her cell phone out and PRESSES buttons until a "Magic 8-Ball" mode appears.
She presses more buttons. A reply appears, "Reply hazy, try again".
INT. FEDERAL BUILDING
A woman is disarming a bomb and is about to cut the blue wire. As the bomb's timer counts down the last few seconds, she takes out her cell phone and presses some buttons.
WOMAN: Do I cut the blue wire?
We see her cell phone in Magic 8-Ball mode as it replies, "Better not tell you now".
She tries again and the cell phone replies, "Outlook not so good."
As the timer gets down to one second, the frame freezes.
Words are on the screen and read by a narrator.
NARRATOR/V.O.: This phone does not exist.
The frame unfreezes and the woman cuts the red wire and the bomb is disabled.
NARRATOR/V.O.: But these phones do:
CUT TO:
A selection of phones from a company is shown on the screen. Each one shows a feature they offer (such as a camera phone with flash, video phone, text messaging (with the word's "Yes"), and iTunes).
NARRATOR/V.O.: A phone can't give you magical advice, but [company name] offers a wide range of services and features to help you give it to others.
FADE TO BLACK.
3rd Commercial:
FADE IN
INT. HOUSE
A WOMAN is sitting on a chair. She picks up her cell phone, presses some buttons, and it begins to vibrate. The woman puts it on her neck to message it.
INT. SHOWER
A WOMAN messages her neck in the shower.
INT. MASSAGE THERAPY CLASSROOM
A teacher instructs the students to use a vibrating cell phone to massage clients' backs.
Words are on the screen and read by a narrator.
NARRATOR/V.O.: This phone does not exist.
One of the students use the cell phone on their neck and gets so relaxed, they pass out.
NARRATOR/V.O.: But these phones do:
CUT TO:
A selection of phones from a company is shown on the screen. Each one shows a feature they offer (such as a camera phone with flash, video phone, text messaging, modes (showing vibrate mode) and iTunes).
NARRATOR/V.O.: A phone can't ease the tension in your muscles, but [company name] offers a wide range of services and features that can ease the tensions in your life.
INT. HOUSE
A big fat MAN in a bath towel sits in a chair. He switches off the battery cover with a battery cover with bumps on it and starts massaging his neck.
FADE TO BLACK
So yeah...I think a magic 8-ball and a massage mode would rock on a cell phone!
Ultra Vivid Dreams
My ultra vivid dreams came back (I haven't had one in days...I think I found a way to trigger them!)..
These were violent and creepy tho..
basically it had this thing that "landed" on the floor and couch that made a deep deep never-ending hole that grew larger if you didn't "feed" it..then, a flower like thing grew around it and the middle had a long human-like tongue..
Whenever a cat or human or anything moved over the hole, the tongue came out and grabbed the person or cat or whatever and brought it into the hole.
Later, the "hole" ended up being more like a growing "crater" in the floor and couch because of some bacteria..
My mom ended up putting a motorized cleaning tool in the floor crater in hopes to stop it from getting bigger..
I also was at a library..it was very big with golden and wood trimmings to doors and golden elevators..I had to give back some kiddie book..
I put 3 of my scripts I wrote for Audio/Video classes up at the "personal web site" I started to make for my HTML class..see it here: http://geocities.com/akiratenshi and click on "writing"..
I read my screenwriting one, "Exit Only", and I can't believe how cheesy some of the scenes are..but I'm proud to say I'm still proud of the script..
I'm also proud I was able to sum each of the scripts up in one sentence each! That's an accomplishment for me!
What's been going on with me lately?
I mean, I used to be able to hide my emotions (especially my cyclical depression) pretty well..
It used to go to my arms (where I couldn't move them well for hours) and to my stomach and chest (where I felt sick and couldn't breath very well)..
But now I just cry..
I HATE IT!!! Crying sucks! But lately, I can't stop it when I feel bad/sad/etc. .. Other emotions (more possitive) have been coming out, too, but I try to hide those, too, because they're not always appropriate..
Gah! Why can't I express sadness in some other way? Even minor pain seems like it would be better (and easier to hide) than crying..
Now I have to walk away and find some place private when I feel bad..then the depression grows because I'm not near other happy people..this SUCKS!!
I know I'm crazy..
It's crazy to be upset ever in the first place..
Just real quick..it was really vivid, but I don't have time to write it out..
Basically I was out somewhere gathering information for 2 articles..some celebration/graduation thingy at CSCC (but was not an actual graduation with gowns and crap at the Vet's)..it was in a huge gym and there were inflatable bouncy things and everything was in yellow and blue..
The other article had something to do with a bus station that I was too lazy to want to drive to and was only a block or so away from this one restaurant/bar place I ate at that had TVs running Fox News and CNN on big TVs..I remembered in my dream, after coming back and hearing the same top news stories for the third time, I was once there all day and listened to the same ones all day..
"Dan" was there watching the news, but didn't notice me..
I was a little weirded out because I left my bag laying with a pile of bags in the center of the place..
Well, I found out you could almost see the bus station from where I was at and it was neat because this place (the restaurant/bar) had a picture window and I could see the whole side of the block..the houses looked like they were built in the last 40-50 years and were sorta close together, but nothing more than most houses I've seen in the city..and each house was about 2 stories high and were pastel colors..
It was a pretty, clear day..
I looked out another window and saw "Tim", "Alaina", "Ken", "Doug", and "Allison" outside goofing off..
I went outside to say hi and see what they were up to as I went to my car..
For the first time in a while, I was in my wheelchair in my dream..I usually don't have it..and it was worse because as we were going to my car, the chair lost some power and wouldn't go fast enough (for me at least)..
Later, "Tim" was showing me a paper (the front or back cover that had 2-3 stories and a picture and a clip art thingy and a maroon border/background)..he said that this one column (a boring one about something about sports) was going to be cut and I was like, "Yeah, that has been pretty boring.." and then he said a lot of people didn't like my celebration/graduation article and I was like, "Yeah, I didn't like it, too, but what did you expect when I had nothing to write about?"..the photo was of that event of people walking toward the podium, but from far back with bad composition taken by me, of course..
But that was my dream basically..
It makes me wanna cry just thinking about it :( :( :( :*(
You know I hate endings..
But I'm thinking at the end of our [supposedly a] year-long student ambassador program, I'm gonna make a huge slideshow of our photos and play it to "Seasons of Love" from the "Rent" soundtrack..
OMG sad :o(
I hate endings and it sucks to think my friends are graduating soon :o(
Yeah, yeah, this is my third post in the last 12 hours..
but GAH! The dream I had was creepy..there was this creepy teacher in it and...well, nevermind, let's just say it was CREEPY..
Ellen was in it and she got mad at me for using her computer to email my friend about the creepy teacher..
Well, also there was this good dream..or maybe it wasn't the BEST thing, but it was still cool.......for me at least, not necessarily for one of the other people in it..
Weird thing is that it could happen..but probably won't....but you never know..*wink*
Ok, now it's just CRAZY!!!! For the last 2-3 days, I've had a deja vu moment every 2-3 hours!!!
I don't know if I dreamt of this stuff beforehand or as I believe, I might have lived this life 3-10 times before..bad thing is, that's my version of Hell..being stuck in a life loop..
But it was weird stuff like I remember driving into the area where Brittney lives and her apartement complex..
I also remember playing the XBox 360 over at Chris' place and saying "Dude, he just passed you!" and Chris saying, "Thanks, Hope"...
So, Sylvia Brown, how is Brittney's apartment and Chris' Xbox among other events in the last 2-3 days points I created on my life path before I was born??
DUDE weird!
I'm sorry, but it's too funny! I always call my parents and I "Ghetto/Hillbilly" meaning we sacrifice style and safety for being cheap and lazy..
Today, my dad put up Christmas lights (dude, it's not even Thanksgiving!)..it's those icicle kind that hangs down..he does this about every other year and each time we think the lights will eventually hang straight on their own, but they never do and we end up with a fuzzy "snow" around our gutters..
Then he said that he has to go to the thrift store to find some more lights and hope they have the same batch or we'll have off colored lights..
What's a Ghetto/Hillbilly house without off colored lights? i said. I also said we should unscrew some of them for "effect" and also, to top it off, hang a ball of tangled lights from a corner of our house!
When my mom said I'll help her put up the tree next weekend, I was like, "Can we have a ghetto/hillbilly tree??!" and I was like, well, it's a 25-year-old plastic tree..how more ghetto/hillbilly can we be?
Then my mom defended the age of the tree saying it's 20 years old because they got it when I was 1 year old down in Florida..that some family didn't want to take it with them when they moved to Iowa, Idaho, oh, no, wait, Utah and gave it to us..I thought they originally found it in a garbage can on the street or something and said, "Can we have this?" lol
Then I was like, how long did the family have it before we got it and my mom said she didn't know..
Ok, other examples of our ghetto/hillbilly-ness:
Recently, I was on the floor in my room or something and I my mom said "We have a warning!" and I'm like, "A warning?"
And she's like, "Yeah, a tornado warning.."
And I don't believe her and I'm like, "Yeah, right! Are you sure it doesn't say 'watch'?"
And she's like, nope, it says "Warning"..
I wait, and she's still sitting there and I'm like, "Could you help me up please?" and she's like, "Just a minute"..
I wait a while and I'm like, "Could you help me up, PLEASE???"
She says, "Just a minute"
This goes on for about 10 min. or so and she finally helps me up..
I go in the other room and the TV has warnings all over it saying there is a tornado headed straight for us and crap..I get my stuff in a pile and ask for help carrying it downstairs..
in the meantime, my mom puts on a taped episode of "Amazing Race"..
The sirens go off and my dad wakes up and runs into the room half asleep saying, "The sirens are going off, what's going on?"
Well, my mom says, "Oh, nothing, there's just a tornado coming.."
I get mad and grab my stuff (laptop, harddrive, cameras, etc.) and carry them to the door..
My dad (dressed in boxers only) takes them and puts them by the basement door and was like, "I'm gonna go outside and see if it's coming..get ready to go downstairs.."
I grab some of his stuff and put it near the door..
I'm yelling at my mom to help and she's like, "It ain't gonna hit us!"
and my uncle calls up and sees if we knew about the impending tornado..my mom says to him on a cordless phone, "We can't be on the phone right now, we are about to go through a tornado!"
I'm told to go out and get my dad anyway, so I get him and he chats on the phone for a while and runs back outside..
Finally, the warning is called off and I tell my dad and he comes back inside..
End of story..
Other things are:
-) We can fix anything with duct tape and a sharpie
-) If it weren't for the Student Ambassador Program, I'd be wearing my 4+ year old jacket that has gigantic holes throughout it..
-) Once I got a hole in one of my sleeves of a nice shirt, I actually thought "If I tear a hole in the other sleeve, it would look fine"
-) Then I almost concidered taking the sleeves off if it
-) My mom converted all of my turtleneck shirts into non-turtle necks, but now my bra shows with them..
-) My "night clothes" a.k.a. large shirts all have either hair dye stains, holes, spaghetti sause, paint, ink, and/or some other undiscriminitable stain on them..
-) I will never need another pen or highlighter in my life
-) My dad is obsessive compulsive when it comes to buying crutches, wheelchairs, canes, and walkers..especially if he can get them for a good price *wink* meaning garage sales (or how Strong Bad puts it "Garbage" sales)..We have enough of those items in our basement to run a small store..
-) We once went on vacation and stayed at a 4 star hotel..the problem was, we ran out of room in our suitcases, so we traveled with trash bags full of our stuff..we had to leave them in a lobby area and no one stole them or threw them away!
-) Later, my dad saw crutches laying in the trash outside someone's house in Circleville..he was like "Are they just throwing those away??????" and drove around the block a few times concidering to ask the owner of the nearby house if they would let him have them..I was like, "Maybe they are going on vacation.."
-) Recently, I was looking for a car wash and my mom was like, "Take a squirt-bottle out with you the next time.."
-) Before we had our house remodeled, we had 25+ year old refrigerator, stove, microwave, etc. Even after the handle fell off the stove, she still used it..the bar that keeps the cold thingies on the door fell off and we duct taped it together..the fridge never really sayed shut and when you shut the freezer, the fridge would pop open..for 7 years straight, we had no carpet in the kitchen, living room, and main bathroom..
-) Now our walls were poorly done, so we are thinking of covering spots up with pictures and adding more lighting to smooth out the walls..
-) I suggested earlier today instead of setting the time, just wait until 12 midnight or noon to turn on the clock..
There was other stuff, but I can't remember what it was..
Stupid cold weather..
I decided to take Jason's 10am tour since I needed to see Bob about taking the Cougar News class before noon..Matt was supposed to take that tour, but I didn't know that..but it was a good thing he didn't though because he's sick with a flu (and stress) and it wouldn't have helped him to do an hour tour in the snow and 28-degree weather..
So I did..the guy who toured was really nice and looked really interested in college, so that was cool..
But now, the cold weather and the food I ate a few hours ago is catching up with me..
I just fell asleep for a few minutes here in the Computer Commons..
I feel like crap, but I can't go home until after class ends at 8pm..and then I have to wait 15 min. or so outside in the freezing cold for Public Safety to come over and help me with my wheelchair..
The crane for the wheelchair will be (or should be) fixed at 10am tomorrow..
Thanks to BVR, I'm out on money from not working twice, and all that gas money to Plain City and now it's during my editing time, too..mostly because after my family and I, the wheelchair manufacturer, and my driver's ed teacher told BVR what kind of chair it is, BVR told the crane people the wrong type of chair..
So since then, I've continued bothering my friends to help me, I've bothered strangers (including people who could be drug dealers and/or rapists for all I know) and have gotten kind of sick of waiting outside for 15-30 min. for help..
Gawd, I feel like craaaaaaaap..
Some weird crap from my part-dream:
+ creepy clown (profile)
+ Mad TV logo
+ older guy (profile) that was the clown
+ iceskate
+ winded metal cord
+ fan/helicopter thing
+ a peacock feather
+ "month old bread" heals used as a bun for a square quarter=pounder with lettuce and a small tomato
+ spoon
+ swingset
+ "I don't go out tomorrow" - old homeless guy drinking at a bar pointing with his right hand over his shoulder
+ guy in a red bandana
+ "You never said you'd be the limo driver"..
+ "a thrown car engin with fireworks/sparks coming out of it
+ a friend holding a flexible foam stick/bat (blue I think)
+ post-it notes on a board
+ working in a movie theater with red/maroon carpet..with popcorn all over
+ some weird guy who looks like a cartoon
+ house with Christmas lights in Ashville
+ "It's better to drop you off here than at the place.."
+ some girl in a bar with friends..she had long brown hair and she was holding or putting an OSU red flag behind her back.."It died."
As I'm organizing my room, I keep finding stuff I wrote a long time ago (ok, so it was 2002)..
Another version of "Don't Say the Killer's Dead (Before the Movie's Over)":
When you feel your would is crumbling
And falling off Atlas' shoulders
When you're in your blackest night
And your fire of life has begun to smolder
And everyday, you feel that everyone's heart
Has gotten a little bit colder
Don't say the killer's dead
Before the movie's over
When you're tired with your
Eternal struggle to roll the boulder
When you take one step back
But be come another day older
When your expectations are too high
But your self confidence couldn't be lower
Don't say the killer's dead
Before the movie's over
When you're near your field of dreams
But have passed your four-leaf-clover
When the hands of time have sped up
Yet you're still going slower
When you're in a dark room
With only a candle holder
Don't say the killer's dead
Before the movie's over
Something I jotted down on June 11, 2002:
I don't wanna be the best of the best
I just wanna be the same as the rest
I don't wanna be overlooked
I don't want glorious fame
I just want some credit and
Meaning behind my name
I know it takes time and time I've got
But sometimes I feel
That this could be my [only] shot
This next one was something from a daydream/movie scenario that I wanted to write someday:
Do you believe in soulmates?
Well, I do..
How else could I miss something I never had with you?
Ironically, the things above fit my life/thinking in some way now as it did back in 2002..of course it is with different aspects/people, but it's still relevent..
Nothin' much I guess..at least nothing too new..
You know how in scripts if there is a scene that doesn't develop character or the plot in anyway, it gets cut? I'm just happy that I haven't had a day like that in about 3 or so months lol..everyday of my life's "script" has been pretty interesting recently..
Bad thing is, I can't talk about it much here..
Other than that, HTML class began and guess what our final project is! A personal site on Geocities! OMG like I haven't had over 7 of those in 2002 alone!
The more and more stuff I do as a student ambassador, the more and more I want a job that gets me out of the house 5-6 days a week where I have to be creative and talk to people and have deadlines and a full schedule..but have time to hang out with friends..
I found out a few weeks ago, I'm not in any degree program and am "undecided" meaning if I change my major to Interactive Multimedia Technology: Digital Audio/Video Production Major now, I have an extra 5 classes to take..I really want to finish the major in 2 quarters like I originally planned!
I tried to change my major to get the Stafford loan, but they said the major doesn't exsist (even though I could do a degree audit somehow)..so I'm thinking of changing my major to Graphics Communication Technology: Photography Certificate and get my certificate (since I have my classes done) and then switch to IMMT:DA/VP hopefully the quarter after that, graduate with my second degree in IMMT then change my major to Associate of Arts with an English concentration to go into Photojournalism/journalism when I get my AA..transfer to Ohio University or Ohio State University..it seems like it's probably going to be OSU because I wanna move to Columbus and see if I can't get a part time job at Columbus State as I work toward my bachelors degree and maybe later a masters..
To get my loan, I need 12 credit hours or more, so I'm taking easy AA classes like Abnormal Psychology next quarter and I think I'll take the Spring Street class (to get more of the Graphic Comm/Publishing/Print design experience) for Winter and Spring..I need an easy 5 credit hour AA class for Spring..maybe I'll take Biology or Chemistry..
Since I will have worked more than 6 months at CSCC, I get half a class paid for and add the loan of around $860 some (?) and my quarter is almost paid for!
If I become a senior ambassador, after a year of working at CSCC, I get half of 2 classes paid for! so I'm hoping I can graduate with my AA within a a year and a half (that's at 12 credit hours a quarter)..I can graduate before that, actually, because I'm counting in extra fun classes lol
What would be nice is if I could transfer to OSU before I get my AA and work on both my AA and BA at the same time..but I doubt that's possible..but I will take the fun classes I want to take at CSCC at CSCC while I attend OSU..
Thank God OSU is only about 10 min. or so from CSCC..
I just hope when I double major in photography, that I don't get a beginning class..I mean, because I'd put extra time in the lab and because the elevator was stuck a few times, I got the beginning class drilled in my head 3 times (by 3 different teachers with 3 different teaching methods) and the advanced class a couple of times..do I really need to learn what the Law of Reciprosity and other basic things are again?? If I double major, I think I'll minor in Psychology or something fun like that..
Other than that, this holiday season, I will be helping give toys to poor kids! I hope this holiday season is better than last year..last year and the year before that, we barely had anything traditionally Christmas..
Last year, we were having our house remodeled at Christmas and New Years, so my room became our living room, so I had no privacy and couldn't listen to Christmas music..I also couldn't drive at the time, so I was stuck in my house for 3 weeks or so! NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE STUCK IN A HOUSE FOR THREE WEEKS!!!! Especially during the holiday season..
This year, I'm going to try to go to the Teays Valley Choir concert..and I'm gonna find some other Wintery/Christmasy things (like the Zoo and crap) and I want a TREE this year!!!!! I wanna party or at least hang out with friends on New Years Eve and New Years!!!! No more spending the night at home eating cup a noodles in my room as my mom watches soap operas!!!
But the real problem is just like it has been for so many years in the past..I would like to have a boyfriend to spend time with (or buy a gift for) around Christmas/new years, but I've never had one around this time :o( and I'm currently single, so it sucks this year, too! My friends say there is still another month or two, but still..
I gotta get my life together..I hope to get it working somewhat smoothly the way I want it by next year..Luckily, the last 6+ months have been the best of my life, deja vu moments every other day (according to Sylvia Brown, that means I planned all this before I was born and I am on the right track and that something in that moment will lead to something else planned and everything leading to it was meant to lead me there, I just think I dream of events before they happen)..
Big deja vu moments in the last few months:
Going to the movies with friends, going to the Rear View Mirror Play, Matt helping me feel better when I was depressed at Welcome Back (dude, I could have SWORN he said the same exact diolog to me before and was a welcome back when he said it and everything..it was WEIRD!!), while we were making stuff for the Family Literacy Day, twice at the International Festival, and last Monday at the Cougar News meeting (I remember them talking about how the text went behind the boxing gloves for some reason)!
I wonder what my next big one will be ;o)
I usually don't post forwards, but these were too true not to (thanks Sam!):
Things ladies tend to do after a fun night of drinkin
1. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHERE MY purse IS.
2. I BELIEVE THAT DANCING WITH MY ARMS OVERHEAD AND WIGGLING MY BUTT WHILE YELLING "WOO-HOO!" IS TRULY THE SEXIEST DANCE MOVE AROUND.
3. I'VE SUDDENLY DECIDED I WANT TO KICK SOMEONE'S ass AND HONESTLY
BELIEVE I COULD DO IT TOO.
4. IN MY LAST TRIP TO PEE, I REALIZE I NOW LOOK MORE LIKE A HOMELESS
HOOKER THAN THE GODDESS I WAS JUST FOUR HOURS AGO.
5. I DROP MY 3:00 A.M. SUBMARINE SANDWICH ON THE FLOOR (WHICH I'M
EATING EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT THE LEAST BIT HUNGRY), PICK IT UP AND CARRY ON EATING IT.
6. I START CRYING AND TELLING EVERYONE I SEE THAT I LOVE THEM SOOOOO MUCH.
7. I GET EXTREMELY EXCITED AND JUMP UP AND DOWN EVERY TIME A NEW SONG PLAYS BECAUSE "OH MY GOD! I LOVE THIS SONG!"
8. I'VE FOUND A DEEPER/SPIRITUAL SIDE TO THE GEEK SITTING NEXT TO ME.
9. THE MAN I'M FLIRTING WITH USED TO BE MY 5TH GRADE TEACHER.
10. THE URGE TO TAKE OFF ARTICLES OF CLOTHING, STAND ON A TABLE AND
SING OR DANCE BECOMES STRANGELY OVERWHELMING.
11. MY EYES JUST DON'T SEEM TO WANT TO STAY OPEN ON THEIR OWN SO I KEEP THEM HALF CLOSED AND THINK IT LOOKS EXOTICALLY sexy.
12. I'VE SUDDENLY TAKEN UP SMOKING AND BECOME REALLY GOOD AT IT.
13. I YELL AT THE BARTENDER, WHO (I THINK) CHEATED ME BY GIVING ME JUST LEMONADE, BUT THAT'S JUST BECAUSE I CAN NO LONGER TASTE THE GIN.
14. I THINK I'M IN BED, BUT MY PILLOW FEELS STRANGELY LIKE THE KITCHEN
FLOOR
15. I START EVERY CONVERSATION WITH A BOOMING, "DON'T TAKE THIS THE
WRONG WAY BUT..."
16. I TAKE MY SHOES OFF BECAUSE I BELIEVE IT'S THEIR FAULT THAT I'M
HAVING PROBLEMS WALKING STRAIGHT.
SEND THIS ALONG TO ALL THE GIRLS YOU KNOW WHO LIKE TO HAVE FUN. MAKE THEM LAUGH AT THEMSELVES LIKE YOU PROBABLY DID...
SADLY, MANY ARE TRUE.
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Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always-sound good, but never actually come close to reality?
Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:
1. When you are sad - I will help get you drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.
4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.
5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
6. When you are confused - I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don 't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass
This is my oath...I pledge it till the end Why, you may ask? Because you are my friend.
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Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
I'm not nessesarily anti-Bush, but I'm not pro-Bush, either..
But in the news it told about Bush's stategy to spend 7.1 BILLION dollars on fighting a flu epidemic..$1.2 billion of that is for vaccines for first responders..Even though I think it's nice they are at least thinking of them first, our next super-flu could be a fast mutating disease and the vaccines might not work..or heck, a really good super-flu would use the dead virus from the vaccine to mutate into something more deadly..
As long as they don't make vaccines madatory, I'll be fine (and so will my future kids) because previous vaccinations I've had all made me sick..event the MMR shot almost made me go to the emergency room because I was seriously sick for a week after getting it..I don't think it was a good thing they forced us to have that shot when we (my friends and I) were just getting over a cold that was going around..
I hope my future kids don't have this problem because the way it was when I was in middle school, MMRs were mandatory or the child would be kicked out of school..if that's the way it is whenever I have kids, and I can't get by by saying it's "against my" (non-exsistant) "religion", I guess I'll homeschool them..with the way standardized testing is going to be in the future, might as well start homeschooling earlier than that..lol..
But conspiracy theory thinking, what would make our government officials look better after all this crap they've been critisized for including Katrina? Start an outbreak and being able to either cure it or stop it.."save" millions of lives..and if they were really smart/cruel, they would start it in an "enemy" country (those poor innocent people)..hmm..
Then other stuff in the news is making me mad..
Like drug prices going higher, twice as much as the inflation rate each year in the last 6 years according to the article I read..
I don't take drugs of any kind (unless you count the caffeine in soda and the occasional alcohol) because I noticed a HUGE improvment after I stopped taking the ones I was on..
The not-so-good ER doc I had the last time said not taking lots of medicine caused my cartilege to go away and why my knee snapped and wouldn't go straight for a while..
YEAH..that's why I can almost straighten my leg again and I'm working on limbering it up..*sarcasm*
I'm not a Scientologist or anything, but I went from crutches and a wheelchair while I was taking medicine to being able to walk somewhat and do more physically challenging things WITHOUT the medicine..
Also, I believe there are cures for a lot of crap out there (cancer, AIDS, etc.), but we don't have them here because the drug companies want money..
But yeah, my mom takes medicine and my dad takes headache medicine when he needs it and my relatives all take medicine and we are all middle class, so the prices do effect us..
So my mom's worried about me and wants me to be part of the prescription drug benefit plan thingy from Social Security or Medicare or whatever..I haven't read much about it, but I'll sign up for it if it's free..if it's not, I'm not going to go even more in debt just "in case" something happens and I "need" medicine..I'm already paying almost a 1/5 of my Social Security income to go to healthcare..
Well, I'll guess I'll start with one of the more recent weird things..
Recently, I made a wish that I would have something "exceptionally great" happen that night..
For some reason, right after that, I saw in my head "Exceptionally Great" in large green 3D san serif letters dwarfing my mind's representation of myself..
Then my mind was like,
"Exceptionally Great won't fit in your car."
"Exceptionally Great would fall at the same rate as a feather in a vacuum."
"Exceptionally Great sticks to the roof of your mouth."
"Exceptionally Great doesn't understand."
And later:
"Money doesn't grow on trees, but Exceptionally Great does!"
and
"Exceptionally Great has a toothache."
Weird, I know..
I guess it comes from wondering what I'd go as if I didn't wear my costume..I thought I'd go as a crazy person..
So if someone was like, "How has your day been?" I'd be like, "It itches."
And I'd randomly say things like, "I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!" and start moving to the music at a time that no music is playing..and I'd randomly yell (probably in the Student Assistance Center), "NO DIVING IN THE POOL!!"
Crap like that..
Recently, I came up with the future cell phone..
I was like, "I'm gonna get a cell phone with a camera!"
Then I kept going..
"And it's gonna have flash and zoom.."
"and it's gonna have video, too.."
"and it's gonna have iTunes.."
"and it's gonna lock/unlock my car and start it up for me remotely.."
"and it's gonna have a GPS navigational system so I won't get so lost.."
"and it's gonna be able to dial McDonalds so I can order ahead of time so when I get there, someone will bring out my food to me.."
"and it's gonna magically stick to wherever I stick it too, whether it be my clothes or my dash.."
"and it's gonna be able to play Nintendo DS games.."
"and it's gonna have iMovies.."
"and it's gonna call me 5 minutes before I make the worst decision of my life.."
"and it's gonna detect any hot single guys within 100 feet of me so I know to wipe food from my mouth.."
"and it's gonna have a pedometer.."
"and it's gonna have a police scanner.."
"and it's gonna give me an electrical shock if I even reach for that delicious brownie at the food court.."
"and it's gonna cheer me on like those entertaining Starbucks commercials.."
"and it's gonna give me my statistical chance of winning when playing poker.."
"and it's gonna let me remotely control the temperature in my house.."
That's all I have right now for that..
Other than that, my life's "script" is continuing to evolve daily and become even MORE soap opera like to the point where I can almost predict "Rachel's" (fake name) next move! HA!! Ok, maybe it's just based on what I would do, but whatever..I can't talk about it here...
Um...
Oh, yeah, I said I would quote him..
Matt said this tonight:
"The two best ways to become more confident is to fuck and fight."
You know what? I think he's right *wink*