Gah..I didn't realize my friend's party was in a bad neighborhood :o(
I have this weird thing where I get "vibes" from people (and I usually hang out with the people with the best "vibes" lol) and even weirder, I get "vibes" from places..
...and this place freaked me out...
I mean, it didn't look much different than some other streets I've been around and felt fine, but this place made me freak out so much that I was litterally SHAKING!
I called Matt because he knows some places in Columbus, but he didn't know the place I was in..but according to my dad, the place I was in was where a lot of drug dealing and shootings go on..
So instead, tonight I'm going to Easton to hang out with some other friends (even if they weren't going, I'd probably go to Easton because it's a hell of a lot safer than where I was and I like Easton)..
Earlier, despite the freezing cold and rain, it was still fun to ride/drive golf carts, watch people design "Go Bucks!" and stuff..
I still don't know how we were able to stuff 6 people on a golf cart lol..
So happy new year, and I'll eventually write my annual what I did in the year and who to thank for it all later!
I only have around 15-30 min. before I need to get ready to go work First Night Columbus..
I only have 4 out of 5 luminaria bags designed..
You can tell I got tired and lazy because the 4th one isn't colored and is a "psycho doodle" that either looks like a bird or a landscape..
The 5th one is blank and if no one else designs it when we get there, I will say it IS art and it represents the "endless possibilities of the new year" and how many people feel that this is a time to start off with a "clean slate"..
I'm freaking out about writing for Cougar News because now that it's a class, I feel the Thursday deadline is important..but I'm writing about long lines and how to avoid them and I wanted to wait until two of the busiest days of the break (Thursday and Friday) to get quotes and information..
Next week might be hard, too because I hope to write about Welcome Team (runs from Tuesday-Wednesday)..
But some other stuff I've been meaning to write here......
I'll have to write next year because I gotta go..
BUUUUUUUUUT...
Coming soon:
-) How to get free stuff (or save money) and other tips..
-) Songs for the Road (songs I've made up while driving.. "ROADKILLL!" and "I think I'm gonna be late for work today" and more!
It's driving me crazy having deja vu moments every other day..
FINALLY somone else I know had one! Matt had deja vu yesterday!
Thing is, I think I remember him saying he believes in multiple lives and living a life multiple times..
So I'm still waiting to hear about someone who has the same type of deja vu (not the "I've been here before" type, but the "I already told you that/You already told me this/We've had this conversation before" type) that doesn't have that belief..
And the weird thing is for me, the same feeling I get from having the deja vu moments, I get premonitions and feelings about other things..
I'm not a huge doomsayer person, I'm probably just psycho, but I keep having weird feelings like the things I see, like crowds at the Nutcracker and kids having fun doing Christmas and holiday things not being here much longer..
Maybe they'll remodel the Ohio Theatre or something because last time I had that kind of feeling, it was true, but all that happened was a room change and a little remodeling, but still making my premonition of not being together in the room like that anymore true..
Yeah, weird..
Man I had such a HUGE Deja Vu moment yesterday..it was weird because I remembered trying to write "12 Crazy Days of Being an SA" with Huong and we were at Arby's and she said she was never there before, but I remember being there talking to her in that exact seat and I remember telling her I remember sitting there and I was like, "I already told you this!!! Didn't I?"..
She thought maybe I dreamt it or something because she had never been to Arby's before then..
The night before that, I had this nice dream about dating this cute guy..
I just don't know him in real life and I don't remember his name from the dream..
He had medium length brown hair that usually would be too long for most guys, but fit him well..
He had a life-saver jaw..
He was almost too tall at about 5'10" or 5'11" (I'm usually attracted to guys who are between 5'6" and 5'10")..
He was almost too thin, but luckily he had muscular arms and his shoulders were a little wide so it made him look pretty good..
I know looks don't matter as much as personality, but when it comes to a dream where it was mostly visual, that's all I have to go on..
As for the small amount of personally that I saw, I'd say he was a fire sign or a Scorpio..probably more likely a Scorpio..
I keep joking saying if I ever actually run into this guy, I'm gonna be like, "IT'S YOU!!!!!!!" and really, if he was my type, one of the answers would be, "Yes, it is me!" one of the others would be, "What are you talking about? Who am I?" It would not be the typical response of ignoring me, the crazy person..
I saw some books at Media Play yesterday that I wanted to buy, but the line was like an hour long or something and we were late..so I hid the books and I hope they'll still be there today!
Apparently, I'm not the only one having them because Kierston said she had some nightmares, too, lately..
But last night wasn't so bad..most of my dreams had "Tim" (fake name) in them so they were actually fun dreams..except somehow my friends were able to get me to shell out $30 for ink tattoos on top of some other henna tattoos on my arms and it was weird because it didn't hurt!
Then I was at some party my parents hosted in the house with "Churchy-people" who all were middle-aged to old and had that typical church clothing..we ate and sange songs and the men there were even adlibbing!
BUT>>>
The night before last was FREEEEEEAKY..
We (some old father-like farmer dude and his son and I) found a spiral crop circle thingy in their yard made in the tall grass..it was night and out in the country so everyone was scared..The boy and I walked in their little country house and it felt even more frightening because we didn't know if the aliens were inside and we were looking ourselves in with them..
Then a gray alien with skinning arms and legs that bent like a spider's crawed down the stairs and showed it's piranha teeth, jumped on the boy and devoured him..
Later, it was even more creepy because it was still night and the "Lucy" character from "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" movie was at the house door and was saying in the same creepy croaky voice the kid in "The Shinning" said "Redrum"..the girl/alien said, "What's ....... up .... What's ..... up .... Whaaaaaaat's uuuuuuuuuuupp" and so on..
Then she smiled evilly and knocked on the door..the mother opened the door and the girl/alien said, "What's up Mrs. ______, your son invited me over to play with him here."
Well, the mom had just gotten out of bed (since it was like midnight or 1am) and was in her robe and looked at her funny and drowsily said, "Not tonight, it's too late. Maybe tomorrow." and shut the door..
that was the end of that dream..
Weird..
..like usual
Like 6 ultra vivid ones in 8 hours (which is weird because I can usually dream 6 vivid dreams in about 3-4 hours)..
Well, a lot of them have lost detail since I got up this morning but I'll try to remember some of them..
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One of them, I was on a HUGE plane that had large dining areas and playrooms for children and crap..
I was on there working/volunteering with other SAers and we were in a weird kitchen preparing food..
I went to look around and found a passenger area with normal airplane seats, but they were comfortable and spread out all nice..
On the right, there was a wall-length picture window that overlooked the small old-english style homes of this one town..
We were flying low and snow covered everything including the right wing and I remembered earlier that the plane moved weird every once in a while..
Now some seat-belted passengers (men in nice business clothes) were talking about how they just hope they land because the weather is getting worse..
I looked out the window and saw another part of this weird large plane that hade a picture window and a glass door..
Some guy walks like nothing is weird about it and exits the door and falls from the plane..
From the same room, two other passengers see it happen and run after him, both falling like he did!
I then saw a guy walking on air over the town the men just fell into and I was describing it to someone like it must have been an illusion and there is a piece of glass the guy is walking on..
the first guy who fell tried to "swim" his way to this "glass" surface, but failed the first time and sank deeper..then he was able to swim up again and break through the "glass" layer which turned into water and a suran wrap type stuff..
Also in the dream, the CSCC rec room was on the plane and they had some kind of ceremony remembering some dead students (I think they fell from the plane) and I noticed one I thought I remembered, a "Logan Smith" or some other last name and I tore town the laminated flyer and noticed it was folded...
On the other side was an old (now sepia) printed photo of kids in the rec room..I thought I recognised from from my elementary school days and some were "spot lighted"..then I noticed Jessie and Brittney in the most recent SA jackets, so I knew it wasn't really old..
There was a more "racy" part of the dream dealing with another picture window and some guy I like..but it was still sweet and ultravivid..Ironically all I could really think of is "Crap I should have shaved my underarms before coming here!" weird..
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Then there was a dream that had elements from the college campus..
First, I was on Broad Street and for some reason, the state house was combined with the Vet's Memorial and I went to take photos on a kinda cold, but still clear day..
Some girl my age started to annoy me with questions when I was in a rush to get the photos done before class..
A storm was looming in the distance and I knew I had to probably drive in it..
Well, the storm came quickly! Too quickly to avoid being wet from poring down rain and what I got mad at was the is annoying girl, who I didn't know, jumped in my car and asked for a ride to a place out of my way..
By now the sky was covered in pitchblack furling clouds and there was dangerous lighting around us..
I told her I was late for school and that I can drive her to my school, but that was it..
GEEZ it was SO hard to drive in what seemed like dark clouds of smoke..I could barely see in front of me! and once some of the smoke cleared when I was downtown, I saw a HUGE F4 tornado of gray and black smoke/clouds coming toward downtown..
Now, in all (or most) of my other dreams with tornados, I would avoid them and hide, freaked out..
THIS TIME, I tried to OUTRUN it! I was like, "Everyone is getting off the road, I can go 70 and beat this thing and STILL get to school on time!!!" So at first I tried to outrun it with my van, but cars and running people got in my way so I hopped out and ran my hardest to the campus to beat out the tornado! Others were running like I was too!
I remember how the wind was tugging on me to lift me up and saw papers and things flying through the air!
I got to school and the wind died down and once inside a building, the storm disappeared!
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For the next dream or two, it was the same..everytime I'd step outside, the black-cloud storm instantly appeared..
My friends and I tried to excape it and ran toward the skywalk on campus and on that side of the building it was clear until I stepped out side and it was insdtantly storming and we ran to the parking garage..
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As we were halfway across, a tsunami hits the sky walk and we are all under water..
We are able to get out of the water by going up to the 4th level of the parking garage..
I knew my dad was still down there (not my real dad, but some skinny old guy who looked 1940s german)..
So I jumped back in and swam through the skywalk and my "dad" was just standing there..
I got to an air pocket and got a breath and tried to pull him out..
he told me he was an alien and that I was part alien and I could breathe under water
So I tried and I could!!!
Weird part was that he said the aliens were terraforming the Earth so we could live there..
Weird (sounds like a familiar Outer Limits)..
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I've gotta go ttyl!
I can't say much about this one situation in this blog, but let's just say I think someone else sees what I see and thinks they probably have caught on to something, which is true, just not as much as they think it is..
And I wrote a song a couple of days ago on the way home about how I feel about the situation and ironically it's getting worse..but as it gets worse, it gets more fun, so I dunno..I'm playing my weird way which may (and probably will) backfire..
But like I've said before, "If life's a game and those who play well will win, then '******' is kicking my ass"...so I gotta figure out how to take it up a notch without hurting myself or others..even though I think it would hurt someone, at this time, I don't think it be as bad as if I did something later..
Which leads me to..
My Weird Dreams Last Night
Nothing much to write about, just wondering about this one part..
I'm normally not a touchy-feely person (at least not if I'm not dating the guy) but in my dream I was all like resting my head on "Sam's" shoulder..I mean, I like the guy, he's cool and all, but in real life we aren't THAT close so I'd never just up and do that..
On to....
My Winter 2006 Schedule
*cheers*
Monday and Wednesday:
Noon - 3:00pm ~ Intermediate Audio Production
Monday Night:
6:30pm-whenever ~ Newspaper construction
Tuesday and Thursday:
4:00pm - 6:30pm(?) ~ Advanced Psychology with Karsten Look!
Wednesday:
3:00pm - 5:00pm ~ Student Ambassador Meeting
Friday:
3:00pm-6:00pm ~ Photo Lab
Whenever I Can:
Writing articles and taking pictures for the Cougar News
Other than that....
"Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" ROCKED!!!! I haven't read the book in 11 years and I remembered half of it by watching the movie! Makes me wanna read the book again and read the rest of the series..
It also gave me my idea for a workshop!!! I hope my idea comes out ok..
So I was reading the news again and I guess Washington (the state) now forces smokers to be 25 feet (which bar owners have to actually measure) away from the door..
The article I read had quotes from people happy that they could drink more..
Does anyone see a problem here?
This one guy was all like, "A few weeks ago, I was at a bar with my buddies, and the smoke was so bad I had to leave."
I'm thinking since he had to leave, it could have saved his life..
Now he can drink SO much more and die of alchohol poisoning or liver problems!
I mean, drinkers don't want to risk cancer on top of everything, but now they can kill themselves faster than before! And they'd still have to walk through smoke when they walk to the bar and back out to their car..
It's like saying, "Hey you with the habit that when you quit could lead to weight gain, stress, and depression and is hard in itself to decide to quit and I know you have to pay tons more taxes and sell your house to keep your habit, you guys have to get frostbite and flus and die out in the cold while us alcoholics who actually have less of a habit and more resources to help us quit and we pay less taxes and quitting has positive effects, we will be nice and toasty in the bar as we kill our liver!"
Geez..
The other thing I read is about schools canceliing proms..they're crazy!
But then, I'd see how the students react..if they start a party or start their own prom, it means they were taught to be leaders, to think of others, and to have initiative..if they don't even talk about or try to start their own prom, I feel their school has failed them miserably..kids should be taught to fight administration or get around it somehow when it's something like proms or other vacations from studies that help them grow and have fun while they do..
The grown-ups are all worried about underage drinking and sex..that's why there is Prom Promise and None Under 21..
Many kids still don't follow it, but it helps a lot..
I think younger and older high schoolers should have a required project once or twice during their high school career to research and present to the younger classes safety in our culture and provide many different views and one part of the presentation needs to be interactive..
Even if it's like safe sex, they should give the different forms of it (or not having sex period), including what could come before or after sex like abstinance and later the morning after pill, abortion, and adoption..and they'd have to show both sides like the birth control pill is great, but it's only 99% effective and after 5 years increases a cancer risk..abortion is an option but it IS a surgery and some people feel that's killing a baby..and so on so kids can make up their own minds..
I think it would be cool if they went and taught the 5-8th graders because a lot of the people I knew in high school had sex for the first time in Middle School so targeting 5-6th at least might help even them make better decisions..
As for the underage drinking thing, they could tell about the risks..........but me personally, I believe our drinking age should be 12 and a holiday or traditional family thing rather than wait until a certain age and binge drink (even tho I did wait until I was 21 and have drank more than I should have each time I was able to drink a lot)..
If kids started drinking when they were 12, by the time they started driving at 15 1/2, they would know how much they can drink and still be able to drive ok and can handle small amounts of alcohol..where if they started drinking at 18-21, they could not realize how much it affects them until they are on the road..
Starting earlier and not making it a rite of passage thing or having heavy drinking games as much, there would be less alcoholics..
The drive home was nuts!
First, my teacher came in telling us we had As for the final so that gave me a 4.0 GPA this quarter! BUUUUUT I still only have a 3.459 Overall GPA :o( It went up about 0.015 points so technically it will raise only about 0.03 points if I get a 4.0 next quarter..still only a 3.489! So hopefully two quarters from now (by June) I hope to get that 3.5 overall GPA I need for Phi Theta Kappa!
Well, he came in and was like, "It's going to snow 6-8 inches tonight, so if you need to leave, leave."
I was like, so I can go work since I told my friend I'd cover him? And he's like, I'd say drive home...
And I went to work...it just started to snow at that time..
I was down at Caps and Gowns for about a half hour and after so many people told me to go home "before the weather gets bad" (I didn't think it'd be that bad), I went home..
Within that half hour, an inch of snow had fallen!
I was playing in the snow near my car saying how pretty it was in the lamplight..
I was driving down Cleveland Ave. (yeah, the street I HATE) and I slid sideways into the right curb 2-3 times!
I was freaking out..I missed Spring St. so I had to take E. Broad St. (the other street I HATE), held up traffic, swerved almost into two cars, and finally decided to take High St. home thinking it would be safer than the freeway..
It was safer, just longer..I usually can get home in 25-35 min. today it took 90 min. or so!
On Rt. 23, a semi-truck almost hit me because I veered into the left lane..
On Cromley Rd., there was no lights and only one pair of tracks on the left side..I kept driving down the center of the road!
Other than that, today:
-) I got to school early
-) To call about volunteer opportunities
-) Went to put my stuff down to get lunch (Adrenaline Rush and pudding)
-) But was told to go 15 min. early to Caps and Gowns
-) So no lunch
-) But there was candy!
-) There was no tour
-) I got a call back about caroling
-) I tried to write an email telling others about it
-) Found out I locked my keys in my car
-) Found out that AAA expired
-) But my car warrenty had roadside assistance
-) That said they'd be there in 35 min.
-) But came in about 90 min. (before there was any snow)
-) I was supposed to edit my final DVD project
-) Decided to use the time waiting to eat lunch
-) Found out that (after getting my leg hit hard by a door) the cafeteria doesn't think students need food during finals week and closed 2 hours before (7 hours earlier than normal)
-) Had to spend $4.25 on a chicken gyro
-) It was delicious
-) Ended up creating sign up sheets during the wait
-) It will be fun if others go caroling when I go!
Weird Dream
Basically it was an ultra vivid dream that made me mad and sad and confused..
In my dream, "Tim" (fake name) text messaged me this LONG message..I only read the first couple of lines before he came and interrupted me and they said something like, "I just wanted you to know I love you" or something cute and sweet like that..
It was weird because even thought I really like the guy (so ok, I kinda more than like the guy), we've never been out or anything and I was thinking in my dream, "Isn't he going out with 'Rachel'?" and later found out it was supposed to have been sent to Rachel and not me, so I had to forward it on..
Weird..
Especially that I actually read in my dream again..
Basically, some really cool stuff and some not so cool stuff has happened recently, but most of it I'm posting in my secret blog..
Wow that was small!
Other than that, I had weird vivid dreams about "Tim" (fake name, of course) and "Samuel"...Don't ask me why I have dreams about "Samuel".."Tim", I understand because I still like him a lot, but "Samuel"??? Even though I think "Samuel" might like me, we aren't around each other as much any more and usually I dream about things happening in my life (or things that WILL happen)..which sucks because I had a vision/dream of being on 23 north and a black car hitting me when they pull out of BP/Speedway in South Bloomfield...
Which reminds me, if you haven't heard, some dude with Parkinson's Disease hit my car on Tuesday! Then he lied and blamed me and got out of a $100 ticket!!!! I hope I don't have to pay to get my car fixed..
That also reminds me! I got a new cell phone - one of those nifty ROKR phones from Cingular...it cost me around 160-200 dollars but I was about to buy an iPod AND a video/camera phone..this saved me so much money!!! so I still have 100 or so left to spend of the money my parents gave me for Christmas..I'm thinking Nintendo DS and a game..but when would I ever play it? I barely even watch TV now that my laptop is messed up and I'm in my room all the time..
Geez..next week will be fun! 5 parties in one week!!!! Finals-Are-Over Party, Graduation Party, Christmas Party, Student Abassador Banquet, and another Christmas Party! This is on top of the final DVD project in AVP, going to Graduation, giving two tours in the snow, and working two nights at Dickens of a Christmas at the Ohio Historical Society..
So I ran across my Un-Resolutions for 2005:
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Write More
People keep telling me to write creatively..I come up with ideas or have dreams and my mom and friends suggest I write it down and make it a story..I tell my friends parts of movie ideas I have and sometimes just the synopsis and they tell me to write the whole thing down because it sounds like something they'd watch..
So, yeah, I'm taking a Screenwriting class this quarter, so that should force me to write..then I hope to write more in my free time..maybe even blog more here to get me to write SOMETHING..
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WOW! I ended up writing at 63 page screenplay based on a dream that quarter in screenwriting! Then I wrote a 39(?) page screenplay in the Spring..then I started to write articles for the paper recently and will each week for a class for the next two quarters! I also blogged some of my ideas more!
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Draw More
My drawing abilities have gotten so bad since I've stopped doodling when I graduated Teays Valley..now I mostly just draw interfaces (rather than cartoon people, and still life and animals)..
The last time I was forced to actually draw something different was when we had to draw our storyboards for Intro to Audio/Video Production Class..even though it took me 7-9 hours, the teacher liked it, so it must have been worth the effort event though I think my people look like Mr. Potato Head on stick figures..
I'm pretty sure we'll have to do our own storyboards in the next AVP classes, so that would be a way to get me to draw again..
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I had to draw 3 more storyboards this year for our intermediate class and two for music video production! Other than that, it's mostly interfaces..
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Shoot More
Like if H20 hasn't gotten me to shoot 5-60 pictures a day..BUT after I get my license, I will be taking pictures of more places, things, and events! I hope to help take pictures for the Journalist Club, if possible..ALSO I plan to take 2-4 photography-related classes (not including the AVP classes) in the Spring..For some reason, I have an urge to record things and then show others..
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I finished H20 and now am the Photoeditor and a photographer for the "Cougar News"..I also do a lot of the pictures for the Student Ambassadors..I also bought a Cannon Rebel and now a camera phone lol..
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DO More
H20 has gotten me out of the house more in the last 6 months, but I wanna do even more! I have a wierd delusion that drives me, but it's probably all for the better..I just want to do, see, and experience new things as often as I can because I'll never know if there might be a day I can't..
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Thanks to the A/VP major and especially the Student Ambassadors (with a special shout out to Matt), I've been shooting movies and music videos, going to parties, doing different types of community service, ETC. ETC. ETC. I can't even write all I've been doing this year much less the last 6 mo.!
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See More
Once I get my license, I plan to go somewhere new once a month (at least)..even if it's taking a new street home or exploring some area nearby..maybe I'll take pictures..and/or write about it..
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ARE YOU KIDDING??? I go somewhere new about once a week it seems sometimes! I also get lost easily, too! I've seen so much of Columbus and the surrounding area in the last couple of months, it's crazy..
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Lose More (Weight)
If I could lose 20-25 pounds, I'd be "average"..if I lost 50 pounds, I'd be underweight, but acepted by society..so I'd like to lose between 20-50 pounds in the next year through excersize and eating better..NOT eating less or torturing myself..
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Grr..the one of the Un-Resolutions I didn't keep..but then again, there's still about a month left and I can have more time in the break to work out!
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Walk More
Over the last 6 months, I've gotten from not being able to stand longer than about 15-45 sec. to being able to excersizing by walking quickly for about 5-15 minutes..if I can continue it, I hope to be able to hardly need to use my crutches WHICH I HATE because they get in the way..the wheelchair's not too bad and let's me get better shots (from my favorite angle, from below)..
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I don't really use those stupid crutches any more!
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Read More
Read the books that I've read up to the last chapter, just to get started into another book..this also goes for the newspaper..I read around 3-5 news stories a day, but would like to started reading at least a whole section a day..
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Other than news, I still don't read as much as I'd like..
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Sleep More
Supposedly it helps ya lose weight and I notice I have more vivid dreams, too! Like last night with that Frank Sinatra song (as sung by Kitty at karoke that one time at the Corner Grind) as the soundtrack and George Clooney and that main guy who was on the Sci-Fi series "The Invisible Man" getting arrested and I kept saying I thought they were innocent..the Invisible Man dide had a pastel green button-up shirt with his sleeves rolled up and Clooney had a short sleeve polo shirt that was orange..it was all for a movie, which I pointed out to people was filmed at Teays Valley because I recognized the hallways and a guy who I thought was "Charlie" was wearing a football jersey (for some reason it had "Vikings" on the back)..then I was a hostage..then I was in my parents bedroom with my hair (if dyed black and thickened) in my mouth, but I could still talk..
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Yeah, I actually sleep less because I'm so busy now!